Richie stepped into the bathroom for a quick shower to wash the sweat and grub the show had left on him, he told em he be right out , shimming out of his jeans , they pooled on the floor , along with his shirt, Shit my stash ,better get it out before Em finds it . He bent over , picked up his jeans digging for the small bag, “Where the fuck ? “ he practically shouted “I know I put in this pocket , now where the fuck is it ? “ panicking he searched through all the other pockets , even his shirt. “FUCK!! “ he shouted then yanked the door open and quickly passed a dumbfounded Em , not even shooting her a passing glance , picked up the phone and dialed Alec.
“Hey man , you know earlier when we talked ? “
“Hey bro what’s up , Yea I do what’s goin’ on “
“It’s missing can’t find it anywhere ? “ Richie rambled
“What you mean you can’t find it I saw you stick it in your right pocket. I have no more til I can get a hold of Brian “ Alec replied
“I can’t believe its fuckin’ gone , I didn’t do anything other than -- “ He paused turning slowly as he recalled Em’s sudden urge to play kissy face then her rush to the restroom “Look Al gotta run I got something to take care of “ Richie hung up then faced Em
“Did you do what I think you did ? “ His voice dark filled with anger
Emmie stood near the dresser, watching Richie's every move since he’d come rushing out of the bathroom. Oh he was angry, she almost cringed but kept her face a cool mask of innocence. “I’m sorry? What do you think I did Richie?”
RIchie tried to remain calm , as he slowly walked over to her “ Did you reach in my pocket and take something out of it ? “
She gave a light hearted little laugh as she quickly changed into her comfortable sweat shirt and pulled her hair back at the nape of her neck. “Why would I do that Richie? Did ya get me a surprise or something?” Just play dumb Emmie, Just play dumb and he’ll never know. She silently prayed. She knew he’d be upset it was gone but she didn’t think he’d be this upset! His eyes were dark pools and getting darker by the minute. She paused and pretended to look at him as if seeing for the first time how upset he was. “Is something wrong? What’s wrong Richie?”
“Em , don’t lie to me ! IT had to be you , I know how you felt about me having my pick me up . so it could only be you ? What did you do with it ? “ Richie’s spoke calmly but the tone was anything but calm.
Emmies eyes narrowed. He had the nerve to tell HER not to lie? Her foot started tapping a fast cadence while she willed herself to think before she spoke. “So, who is lying to who then?”
“Don’t change the subject, but to answer your question yes I did , I see nothing with a pick me up for fucks sake ! I tried to do it for you but this life is fucking hard so I use it now and again so the fuck what !! Who are you to come in and try and change me ? “ Richie shouted
Her shoulders slumped and she sighed. She knew he couldn’t see what it did to him, he thought he was just fine. But, she could see how different he was with it. The mood swings, the constant go , go , go then the sudden crash. Hell that's how she became suspicious that he was using again! The last time he’d crashed he’d scared her near to death. He wouldn’t wake up. She’d been just about to run down the hall to get Jon he had her that scared. But then he’d come out of it. “I don’t know... I don’t know Richie who am I, why don’t you tell me!” she said a bit harsher than she intended.
RIchie shook his head “ Fuck if I know , you come in my life , try and change me . I didn’t expect that from you but then I should have known . A snooty girl from the Rodeo Drive . Next thing you know I’ll be not doin’ what I love and shuffling paperwork for the Senator “ He spat each word with such a venomous tone.
Emmie huffed. As if she’d ever ask him to do such a thing! “You know what you big spoiled jersey brat, Fuck you!” She felt her anger rising. Her profanity shocked her but she couldn’t hold it any longer. “Fuck you and your God Damn drugs! I’m sorry if I CARED enough to try to keep you from KILLING yourself, it’s obvious to me that you don’t give a damn so why should I?!?!” She crossed her arms defiantly in front of her and prayed the tears threatening would just stay back.
Richie glared , stormed over to his bag , shimmied into his jeans , snatched a shirt and slid it on “ You knew comin’ here what life was like I warned you . YOU said you could handle it ! Did you lie then too ?? I Knew you were too young -- why couldn’t you just leave things the fuck be ! You know be seen and not heard “ He growled as he slid into his shoes , grabbed his key . “Fuck you too babe ! “
He stormed to the door , whipped it open so hard it , Em could swear it was gonna come off its hinges then slammed it just as hard “Doc for once may have been right “ He yelled as he made his way down the hall and to the elevator.
Emmie stared after him, the slam of the door resounded in her head. Her mouth hung open. Did he really just SAY that? Seen and not heard? What the hell was that? too young? She was too young? He was the one acting like an insolent teen with anger management issues! She frowned then bent down to pick up her high heel and slammed it at the closed door. “Bite me Sambora!” she growled to no one but the empty room. She walked over to the door and threw the slider lock into place. Just try to come back in here tonight babe, just try I dare ya.
With the drama over she let her anger fade and the tears fell softly, silently. She made her way to the big empty bed and slid under the covers. It was a long time before sleep finally found her.
Richie sat at the bar, waving the bartender over for another round, of the burning auburn liquid sustenance that was totally numbing his mind to the fact , Em and He had just had a major blowout , Damn her anyway , why the fuck she try to change him ? Was he that bad now ? Questions swirled around his head , as he quickly downed another glass. No girl in his life complained before about his extracurricular activities . IF he didn’t love the girl so much , he would have told her to leave but needless to say he did .
After a few more glasses , he threw some cash on the bar , unsteadily made his way back upstairs, knowing he probably be better to crash somewhere else he walked on the elevator. where could he crash , Jon wasn’t in -- he was the only one to know , he was skipping out for those two days--so he was off the list . Alec thats where .
Once off the elevator , he drunkenly stumbled to Alec’s door and knocked . He may not have his pick me up but he’s liable to have something to numb the pain and anger he was feeling right now..
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Thursday, December 2, 2010
Chapter 26
Emmie sat in the dressing room silently watching everyone. Gia sat off in a corner reading a book with her feet up. She’d really been taking it easy the last few days. She breathed a sigh of relief. Her miscarriage had come as such a shock! She was so glad she was ok and she was very glad that Jon was being so attentive and going out of his way to make sure she rested good. She glanced at Jon who was diligently writing out the nights set lists. Every once in a while his gaze would slide over to rest on Gia and he would smile. It seemed Gia’s short stint in the hospital had brought her and Jon even closer. It was sweet. Sad but sweet.
He eyes flitted over to Richie who was deep in conversation with Alec and Tico. She felt her heart tighten up. Ever since the day she’d taken what she thought were simple caffeine pills she’d been wary, uneasy. Richie had apologized over and over and promised to lay off the drugs and while he seemed to at first Emmie had a sneakin suspicion that he was using again. How else could he always be so..... up? None of them got much sleep, not with the schedule they had to keep but Richie just never stopped! Always go go go and all Emmie could do was try her best to keep up. She wondered if the other guys dabbled with substance. She didn’t think Jon would, he was too serious and clear headed all the time the others, she wasn’t so sure it wasn’t like she was best of friends with them. They mostly smiled at her and went about their business but didn’t really bother to talk to her much. She watched as Alec handed Richie a small plastic bag and Richie quickly shoved it in his jeans pocket. She sighed, she wanted to go over there and yell at him! She wanted to hit him! but she did nothing but rub her forehead and take a long deep drink of her wine cooler.
Richie had tried to keep his promise to Em but it was hard , these late nights and early mornings was just too much , Jon needed him at his full attention so there for he needed these . Doc said there really wasn’t anything wrong with a pick me up and he had to agree . Though he did promise Em. What she won’t know won’t hurt her he thought to himself as he made his way over to her . He really needed to be on his game , after the meeting the other day where Doc went on a rampage , mostly due to Jon’s almost situation , he growled at all of them , none of them can afford to fuck up not at this stage in the game.
He cast a glance at Jon who went round with Doc , telling him his personal life had nothing to do with his life on stage but Doc begged to defer saying the girls were already changing them. The boys needed to flirt and flaunt to keep the girls in the audience happy and now they weren’t doing that . He wanted to send the girls home but Jon nearly screamed the word no to him then stormed out of the room . Richie chuckled to himself never in his life had he seen Jon ever not listen to what Doc the magnificent said or ordered as it seemed as of lately.
Shaking off those annoying thoughts of the meeting from hell , he snuck up to Em and slid his arms around her “ Heya baby “ and nuzzled her neck.
“hey” she said softly closing her eyes she leaned back against him. God I wish he didn’t make me feel so good with just a sigle word! Maybe then I would have the guts to really give him a peice of my mind! She turned her head and kissed his cheek, the wheels of her mind turning over and over about what to do with him.
“Is something wrong ? “ He asked his voice tinged with a bit of concern and worry. She was quiet too quiet.
Emmie shook her head then turned to face him,”Hey Richie.. I... I thought maybe after the show you and me we could ya know, cut out... go back to the room and relax.” She stretched up to plant a soft kiss on his lips.
Richie arched an eyebrow “Sure baby , I thought you wanted to go with Jon and Gia to dinner afterwards ? What made you change your mind ? Too tired ? “ he asked while his hands ran smoothly and gently down her arms.
“yeah, yeah I am tired and besides... I miss you.” She sidled herself closer to him pressing up against him, her hands slipped down to his belt loops and playfully pulled him even closer. She nuzzled his neck for effect hoping to distract him from her intent.
Richie growled his hands sliding down to her behind , cupping it “I have missed you too, I’m so sorry baby it just get so crazy sometimes , if you have felt neglected I’m so sorry “
She let one hand flirt playfully on the waist band of his jeans, her fingers slyly tickling the skin there. She pulled his head down and kissed him passionately. Her other hand swiftly and undetected slipped into the pocket she’d seen the little plastic bag go into. She fished it out and palmed it then broke the kiss. “It’s ok, I understand, really I do but.... can we please just skip out tonight?”
‘Sure baby , right after I shower we can skip out “ RIchie smiled “Just have to let Jon and Gia know they ain’t waiting on us “ he said his mouth mere inches away from hers .
“mmmm kay.... thank you.” She kissed him once again then broke away. “‘Scuse me a minute sweetie, darn wine cooler going right through me. Got hit the lil ladies room.” She winked as she walked away tossing a smile over her shoulder. She breathed a sigh of relief once in the bathroom and hurried flushed the baggy of white powder down the commode. Hopefully he wouldn’t notice it was gone right away. She knew it was low, going about it the way she had but what else was she to do? That stuff was no fluffy carnival game it was serious and dangerous and she just couldn’t allow him to play Russian roulette like that, she couldn’t!
Making sure she took enough time to make it look good she washed her hands before slowly returning back to the dressing room.
Richie watched her leave, never the wiser , that she just lifted his stash off his body .He sauntered over to Jon , glancing over his shoulder “Hey bro how’s it comin ? “ he asked .
“Just about done man.” Jon glanced up the handed a long sheet of marked paper up to him. “There, I think that should do it.”
He nodded as he took a look at the setlist ‘Looks good crowd should love this . “ He gazed over to Gia “Look , I know Gia had asked us to join you two for dinner , we’re gonna have to pass man . Em wants some alone time . “
Jon raised an eyebrow, “Really? well, I can understand that man, lately you been running just as much, if not more than me, some alone time might do ya some good, specially with the double off days the next two days. You and the little lady just rest up huh?”
“Yea , can really use it , so could you ? You been none stop since Gia’s release .” He paused for moment debating whether to bring up the very touchy subject , he hadn’t spoken much if at all but he could tell when there was something eating at him ‘How’s things with you and Gia ? Since well -- “
Jon smiled a soft smile “Good actually, thanks for asking. The shock is wearing off and well, it’s gonna be ok now. She’s gonna be just fine man she really is. And as for us, don’t you worry we have scheduled two full days of lazy movie watchin and eating anything we can order from room service... it;s gonna be great!” Jon grinned. He really was looking forward to time alone with Gia after the shock and hectic schedule of the last week.
Richie smiled it was really good to se his brother so happy and content for the first time in a awfully long time .He clasped his shoulder “Good , you deserve it man , “ IF it been any girl before Gia 6 weeks of no sex would have driven the man insane but the man that sat before him was like himself content in just watching movies and chilling out for two days . He then chuckled “Who would have thought ? just a few short weeks , we're happy with a good movie , snuggling in bed with our girls .No wonder Doc is having a fit “
Jon chuckled then winked “Well I wont tell if you wont tell, no one needs to know right?” he joked “Our reps are still safe.”
He laughed “I’m certainly not saying a word , hell if the word got out the King is retired so to speak “ shaking his head, then noticed Em was back “ Better get back to my lady “
Jon threw back his head and laughed as Richie scampered back to Emmie’s side. Yeah things had sure changed, but it was good, it was all good. He smiled contentedly before bending his head to go over the list one last time.
Richie joined Em , “Heya baby is all cool with Jon and Gia they’re got 2 days of holding up in the hotel planned for them . What would you like to do on our two days off ? “ He asked snaking his arms around her pulling her close to him.
She hugged him tightly “I don’t care what we do, as long as it’s just me and you.” she said honestly. Her spirits lifting now that the dreaded substance was gone.
He dipped his head down to kiss her ‘ Sounds like a good plan to me “ If he was sure about one thing in his life it was Em.
He eyes flitted over to Richie who was deep in conversation with Alec and Tico. She felt her heart tighten up. Ever since the day she’d taken what she thought were simple caffeine pills she’d been wary, uneasy. Richie had apologized over and over and promised to lay off the drugs and while he seemed to at first Emmie had a sneakin suspicion that he was using again. How else could he always be so..... up? None of them got much sleep, not with the schedule they had to keep but Richie just never stopped! Always go go go and all Emmie could do was try her best to keep up. She wondered if the other guys dabbled with substance. She didn’t think Jon would, he was too serious and clear headed all the time the others, she wasn’t so sure it wasn’t like she was best of friends with them. They mostly smiled at her and went about their business but didn’t really bother to talk to her much. She watched as Alec handed Richie a small plastic bag and Richie quickly shoved it in his jeans pocket. She sighed, she wanted to go over there and yell at him! She wanted to hit him! but she did nothing but rub her forehead and take a long deep drink of her wine cooler.
Richie had tried to keep his promise to Em but it was hard , these late nights and early mornings was just too much , Jon needed him at his full attention so there for he needed these . Doc said there really wasn’t anything wrong with a pick me up and he had to agree . Though he did promise Em. What she won’t know won’t hurt her he thought to himself as he made his way over to her . He really needed to be on his game , after the meeting the other day where Doc went on a rampage , mostly due to Jon’s almost situation , he growled at all of them , none of them can afford to fuck up not at this stage in the game.
He cast a glance at Jon who went round with Doc , telling him his personal life had nothing to do with his life on stage but Doc begged to defer saying the girls were already changing them. The boys needed to flirt and flaunt to keep the girls in the audience happy and now they weren’t doing that . He wanted to send the girls home but Jon nearly screamed the word no to him then stormed out of the room . Richie chuckled to himself never in his life had he seen Jon ever not listen to what Doc the magnificent said or ordered as it seemed as of lately.
Shaking off those annoying thoughts of the meeting from hell , he snuck up to Em and slid his arms around her “ Heya baby “ and nuzzled her neck.
“hey” she said softly closing her eyes she leaned back against him. God I wish he didn’t make me feel so good with just a sigle word! Maybe then I would have the guts to really give him a peice of my mind! She turned her head and kissed his cheek, the wheels of her mind turning over and over about what to do with him.
“Is something wrong ? “ He asked his voice tinged with a bit of concern and worry. She was quiet too quiet.
Emmie shook her head then turned to face him,”Hey Richie.. I... I thought maybe after the show you and me we could ya know, cut out... go back to the room and relax.” She stretched up to plant a soft kiss on his lips.
Richie arched an eyebrow “Sure baby , I thought you wanted to go with Jon and Gia to dinner afterwards ? What made you change your mind ? Too tired ? “ he asked while his hands ran smoothly and gently down her arms.
“yeah, yeah I am tired and besides... I miss you.” She sidled herself closer to him pressing up against him, her hands slipped down to his belt loops and playfully pulled him even closer. She nuzzled his neck for effect hoping to distract him from her intent.
Richie growled his hands sliding down to her behind , cupping it “I have missed you too, I’m so sorry baby it just get so crazy sometimes , if you have felt neglected I’m so sorry “
She let one hand flirt playfully on the waist band of his jeans, her fingers slyly tickling the skin there. She pulled his head down and kissed him passionately. Her other hand swiftly and undetected slipped into the pocket she’d seen the little plastic bag go into. She fished it out and palmed it then broke the kiss. “It’s ok, I understand, really I do but.... can we please just skip out tonight?”
‘Sure baby , right after I shower we can skip out “ RIchie smiled “Just have to let Jon and Gia know they ain’t waiting on us “ he said his mouth mere inches away from hers .
“mmmm kay.... thank you.” She kissed him once again then broke away. “‘Scuse me a minute sweetie, darn wine cooler going right through me. Got hit the lil ladies room.” She winked as she walked away tossing a smile over her shoulder. She breathed a sigh of relief once in the bathroom and hurried flushed the baggy of white powder down the commode. Hopefully he wouldn’t notice it was gone right away. She knew it was low, going about it the way she had but what else was she to do? That stuff was no fluffy carnival game it was serious and dangerous and she just couldn’t allow him to play Russian roulette like that, she couldn’t!
Making sure she took enough time to make it look good she washed her hands before slowly returning back to the dressing room.
Richie watched her leave, never the wiser , that she just lifted his stash off his body .He sauntered over to Jon , glancing over his shoulder “Hey bro how’s it comin ? “ he asked .
“Just about done man.” Jon glanced up the handed a long sheet of marked paper up to him. “There, I think that should do it.”
He nodded as he took a look at the setlist ‘Looks good crowd should love this . “ He gazed over to Gia “Look , I know Gia had asked us to join you two for dinner , we’re gonna have to pass man . Em wants some alone time . “
Jon raised an eyebrow, “Really? well, I can understand that man, lately you been running just as much, if not more than me, some alone time might do ya some good, specially with the double off days the next two days. You and the little lady just rest up huh?”
“Yea , can really use it , so could you ? You been none stop since Gia’s release .” He paused for moment debating whether to bring up the very touchy subject , he hadn’t spoken much if at all but he could tell when there was something eating at him ‘How’s things with you and Gia ? Since well -- “
Jon smiled a soft smile “Good actually, thanks for asking. The shock is wearing off and well, it’s gonna be ok now. She’s gonna be just fine man she really is. And as for us, don’t you worry we have scheduled two full days of lazy movie watchin and eating anything we can order from room service... it;s gonna be great!” Jon grinned. He really was looking forward to time alone with Gia after the shock and hectic schedule of the last week.
Richie smiled it was really good to se his brother so happy and content for the first time in a awfully long time .He clasped his shoulder “Good , you deserve it man , “ IF it been any girl before Gia 6 weeks of no sex would have driven the man insane but the man that sat before him was like himself content in just watching movies and chilling out for two days . He then chuckled “Who would have thought ? just a few short weeks , we're happy with a good movie , snuggling in bed with our girls .No wonder Doc is having a fit “
Jon chuckled then winked “Well I wont tell if you wont tell, no one needs to know right?” he joked “Our reps are still safe.”
He laughed “I’m certainly not saying a word , hell if the word got out the King is retired so to speak “ shaking his head, then noticed Em was back “ Better get back to my lady “
Jon threw back his head and laughed as Richie scampered back to Emmie’s side. Yeah things had sure changed, but it was good, it was all good. He smiled contentedly before bending his head to go over the list one last time.
Richie joined Em , “Heya baby is all cool with Jon and Gia they’re got 2 days of holding up in the hotel planned for them . What would you like to do on our two days off ? “ He asked snaking his arms around her pulling her close to him.
She hugged him tightly “I don’t care what we do, as long as it’s just me and you.” she said honestly. Her spirits lifting now that the dreaded substance was gone.
He dipped his head down to kiss her ‘ Sounds like a good plan to me “ If he was sure about one thing in his life it was Em.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Chapter 25
Gia fought back the tears, how could she not know she was pregnant , now it was gone , no chance of getting used to the idea poof. gone natta , and her heart broke for her lost child . What could Jon think of her for not knowing . Her head was turned , as she gazed the wall , she didn’t hear him come in .
“Hey” he reached out and touched a lock of hair gently. She looked so sad. “Told ya I’d be right here.”
Gia turned on her side to face him , she reached his hand , grasping it close to her “I’m sorry so sorry , I had no idea honestly “ she rambled quietly , tears welled in her eyes .
Sorry? she was sorry? Why was she sorry? He frowned, “Gia, it’s not your fault, it’s not any-ones fault these things just happen.”
“But I should have known, how could not know I was pregnant . A woman is supposed to know these things and I didn't “ Gia sobbed “I didn’t even get a chance to get used to the idea , not like it probably was the right time for you anyway but still “
“Gia, Gia...” He sighed and slipped onto the bed pulling her into his arms. “Maybe it wasn’t the right time, but that doesn’t mean tomorrow isn’t.” As soon as the words were out of his mouth he wondered. Did I just really say that? Could I be a father? He had no doubt that Gia would make a wonderful mother but him a father? He was a fuck-off most days and did nothing to change the fact even though he was well aware. What kind of father would he be traipsing around the globe, living the fast life. No, it definitely wasn’t the right time for that. Then why do I still find myself thinking about how nice it would be?
Gia stared at him for a few moments , Did he really mean that ? Did he want a baby with her ? She hadn’t even thought that far ahead but when they told her she lost his baby , it left a deep hole in her heart , she didn’t know was there. The more she watched him , the sadness tucked deeply behind those blue eyes it tugged at her heart , What would they have done if this baby would have survived? She hadn’t a clue but seeing the sadness in his eyes there was no doubt he was grieving as much as she was considering they hadn’t had a chance to wrap their minds around that she had been pregnant “I just can’t believe I didn’t know . “ her hand absentmindedly slid down to her stomach. “A baby , I never even thought about it now it seems that's all I think about . “ It hit her what he had said tomorrow “Wait , did you just say what I think you just said , you wanna try again? “
Jon paused, did he? “Well uh, I don’t know Gia, I don’t know if I would say we should try but I,” He frowned as he tried to get his thoughts and feeling together in a way that would make sense to her. “I don’t think I really wanna worry about stopping it. “ That was the truth. Why should they take precautions? Why not just let nature take it’s course. In his mind it would be like a sign. If it happened again then it was meant to be. If not, well then they knew. The guy upstairs always knew what was best. He truly believed that.
Gia thought over what he said it made sense , if it did happen again , she would make sure she would do everything right this time. She would take notice of all the signs , then a dreaded fear struck her , She gazed up “ What if I can’t carry a baby? “ She prayed she could. It was just one of those things , the doctor said Yea maybe medically but to her emotionally it was more than one of those things . A woman was born to do this -- why did she feel like a failure.
“No, no baby, you’re fine really.” He rubbed her arms reassuringly and hugged her against him. “Believe it or not the Dr. said this is normal, nothing is wrong at all your perfectly fine and after some rest and healing, you’re good to go. Seriously Gia, that's what he told me and he’d know. It was just a fluke.”
She hugged him tightly with a slight smile spoke “Yea he told me too , I’m Italian we’re built to have ton’s of babies “ she tried to joke “You know we have to find other ways to pass the time for a few weeks ‘ her hands resting on his arms , that caressed her .
He chuckled a bit “Yeah I know but we’ll be ok. You and me, we seem to be pretty good at pulling fun out of our asses ya know.”
A burst of laughter escaped Gia, “ Yea we do , don’t we ? “ pausing for a moment , she glanced up at him “OH this should really give the asshole plenty of ammunition to fire at you , Are you ready for another lecture ? I honestly haven’t meant neither has Em meant to cause any trouble for you . “ her eyes searching his .
Jon shrugged “I don’t want you or Emmie worrying about Doc ok? and that’s an order.” he dropped a kiss on her cheek.
“We just don’t want any trouble for you is all “ Gia answered her finger stroking his cheek
“You let me worry about me ok?” He kissed her tenderly “I got this...”
‘I love you , I can worry about you if I want “ Gia smirked then grew serious “Does anyone know I’m here ? “
His face broke out in big grin at her confession. “I love you too and yes I made a few phone calls don’t worry, besides your outta here in the morning so I just told everyone to get some sleep. I took care of everything.”
“Thank you , you’re so good to me . If you’re fan’s knew just how sweet you are, I might have to fight them off “ She said trying to stifle a yawn .
He chuckled “You rest now baby ok?”
Her eyes drifted close “Ummhmm , you ain’t leavin’ are you ? “ snuggling down against his warm embrace , the steady beat of his heart lulling her to a peaceful sleep.
“No, I’m not going anywhere, I promise.”
“Good, “ Was the last words spoken , as Gia drifted off , the hole in her heart was still there but with Jon being there made things all right and that's all she needed .
“Hey” he reached out and touched a lock of hair gently. She looked so sad. “Told ya I’d be right here.”
Gia turned on her side to face him , she reached his hand , grasping it close to her “I’m sorry so sorry , I had no idea honestly “ she rambled quietly , tears welled in her eyes .
Sorry? she was sorry? Why was she sorry? He frowned, “Gia, it’s not your fault, it’s not any-ones fault these things just happen.”
“But I should have known, how could not know I was pregnant . A woman is supposed to know these things and I didn't “ Gia sobbed “I didn’t even get a chance to get used to the idea , not like it probably was the right time for you anyway but still “
“Gia, Gia...” He sighed and slipped onto the bed pulling her into his arms. “Maybe it wasn’t the right time, but that doesn’t mean tomorrow isn’t.” As soon as the words were out of his mouth he wondered. Did I just really say that? Could I be a father? He had no doubt that Gia would make a wonderful mother but him a father? He was a fuck-off most days and did nothing to change the fact even though he was well aware. What kind of father would he be traipsing around the globe, living the fast life. No, it definitely wasn’t the right time for that. Then why do I still find myself thinking about how nice it would be?
Gia stared at him for a few moments , Did he really mean that ? Did he want a baby with her ? She hadn’t even thought that far ahead but when they told her she lost his baby , it left a deep hole in her heart , she didn’t know was there. The more she watched him , the sadness tucked deeply behind those blue eyes it tugged at her heart , What would they have done if this baby would have survived? She hadn’t a clue but seeing the sadness in his eyes there was no doubt he was grieving as much as she was considering they hadn’t had a chance to wrap their minds around that she had been pregnant “I just can’t believe I didn’t know . “ her hand absentmindedly slid down to her stomach. “A baby , I never even thought about it now it seems that's all I think about . “ It hit her what he had said tomorrow “Wait , did you just say what I think you just said , you wanna try again? “
Jon paused, did he? “Well uh, I don’t know Gia, I don’t know if I would say we should try but I,” He frowned as he tried to get his thoughts and feeling together in a way that would make sense to her. “I don’t think I really wanna worry about stopping it. “ That was the truth. Why should they take precautions? Why not just let nature take it’s course. In his mind it would be like a sign. If it happened again then it was meant to be. If not, well then they knew. The guy upstairs always knew what was best. He truly believed that.
Gia thought over what he said it made sense , if it did happen again , she would make sure she would do everything right this time. She would take notice of all the signs , then a dreaded fear struck her , She gazed up “ What if I can’t carry a baby? “ She prayed she could. It was just one of those things , the doctor said Yea maybe medically but to her emotionally it was more than one of those things . A woman was born to do this -- why did she feel like a failure.
“No, no baby, you’re fine really.” He rubbed her arms reassuringly and hugged her against him. “Believe it or not the Dr. said this is normal, nothing is wrong at all your perfectly fine and after some rest and healing, you’re good to go. Seriously Gia, that's what he told me and he’d know. It was just a fluke.”
She hugged him tightly with a slight smile spoke “Yea he told me too , I’m Italian we’re built to have ton’s of babies “ she tried to joke “You know we have to find other ways to pass the time for a few weeks ‘ her hands resting on his arms , that caressed her .
He chuckled a bit “Yeah I know but we’ll be ok. You and me, we seem to be pretty good at pulling fun out of our asses ya know.”
A burst of laughter escaped Gia, “ Yea we do , don’t we ? “ pausing for a moment , she glanced up at him “OH this should really give the asshole plenty of ammunition to fire at you , Are you ready for another lecture ? I honestly haven’t meant neither has Em meant to cause any trouble for you . “ her eyes searching his .
Jon shrugged “I don’t want you or Emmie worrying about Doc ok? and that’s an order.” he dropped a kiss on her cheek.
“We just don’t want any trouble for you is all “ Gia answered her finger stroking his cheek
“You let me worry about me ok?” He kissed her tenderly “I got this...”
‘I love you , I can worry about you if I want “ Gia smirked then grew serious “Does anyone know I’m here ? “
His face broke out in big grin at her confession. “I love you too and yes I made a few phone calls don’t worry, besides your outta here in the morning so I just told everyone to get some sleep. I took care of everything.”
“Thank you , you’re so good to me . If you’re fan’s knew just how sweet you are, I might have to fight them off “ She said trying to stifle a yawn .
He chuckled “You rest now baby ok?”
Her eyes drifted close “Ummhmm , you ain’t leavin’ are you ? “ snuggling down against his warm embrace , the steady beat of his heart lulling her to a peaceful sleep.
“No, I’m not going anywhere, I promise.”
“Good, “ Was the last words spoken , as Gia drifted off , the hole in her heart was still there but with Jon being there made things all right and that's all she needed .
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Chapter 24
Chapter 24
A little over a month later of pure blissfulness with Jon, Gia awoke in the middle of the night ,grasping her stomach. At first she thought maybe it was time for Auntie Flo to make her appearance. It had been a good 5 weeks since she had hers and this one was out for vengeance it seemed , she slowly sat up but as she did so another ‘cramp ‘ blindsided her causing her to let out a soft shrill. “ Fuck! “ .
She tried to climb out of bed and make it to the bathroom , but each time she moved the pain grew worse. What the fuck was going on ? She has had bad cramps before but never to the point where she wanted to cry.
Jon stirred when he heard her low swearing and cracked open an eye lid. “S’matter baby? “ He asked sleepily.
Gia gritted through the pain. “ I dunno -- Fuck me this hurts . Thought it was my period coming but this aint right I don’t think ? “
Jon frowned and sat up reaching over to flip on the light. He squinted in the brightness and turned. He placed his hand on Gia’s back and rubbed lightly, reassuringly. “ Want me to get you some aspirin honey?”
“Help me to the bathroom please ? Hell its never been this -- “Gia gasped the moment her feet touched the floor a gush of blood streamed down her leg . “Something isn’t right about this “ she winced doubling over in excruciating pain .
Jon frowned when she gasped and came fully awake. Her appearance finally catching his attention. Her face was white, her forehead beaded with slight dampness. He came around and steadied her looking down he swore. “Sit down babe, I’m calling for help.” He tried to keep the panic out of his voice but it was a hard. His brain raged, what was going on? He crossed to the phone, dialed the front desk and explained that he needed paramedics. placing the phone back into it’s cradle he came back to her. “It’s gonna be ok baby. ok? I don’t know what’s going on but help is coming ok?”
Gia slumped back on the bed ,curling in a ball , trying to will the pain away. Tears glistened her eyes ‘I hope they hurry , it hurts so bad. “ she pleaded her voiced coated with pain. “Its never hurt this bad baby , something is wrong I know it. “
Jon knew something was very wrong. There was much more blood than there should have been, even being a guy he knew what was normal when it came to things like that. He racked his brain. How could this be happening? Wouldn’t he have known if she had been pregnant? He glanced down at the spreading blood and prayed for help to arrive. Obviously not... It seemed like hours but in reality was only minutes before there was a knock and the paramedics announced themselves. He dropped a kiss on her forehead and hurriedly let them in. As they came thru the door asking questions Jon lowered his voice and whispered to the man in charge “I think... i think she’s having a miscarriage.” As strange as it seemed, as careful as he’d been it was the only reason he could think of for this to be happening.
The medic nodded. “Don’t worry sir we’ll take good care of her.” him and his partner immediately went to work. “ Hi ma’am you’ll be just fine. " he said re-assuredly , as he began his quick assessment . then murmured to his partner to radio in this was definitely a miscarriage in progress.
They slowly moved her to the gurney , Gia’s eyes were filled with a mixture of fear and pain , she held her hand out for Jon “I’m scared. “ She had no idea what was goin’ on and at the moment to scared and in pain to care . She just wanted to feel better.
“Don’t worry babe, I’m comin’ with ya. “ He grabbed his jacket and followed the whole group out staying near to the gurney as he could without getting in the way. ‘It’s gonna be ok I promise... trust me?”
Gia nodded as she winced again another sharp pain ripped through her . The medics loaded her quickly and carefully into the ambulance and whisked her off to the hospital which thankfully was only a few short minutes away.
Once at the hospital, The medics unloaded her , speeding her through to an empty room where a doctor was waiting . Gia pleaded with them to let Jon stay “ Please I need him. “ tears were falling down her pale cheeks .
Jon brushed her hair back from her forehead, ‘Baby I just gotta step outside for a few minutes ok? They need some information so they can help you. I won’t be long I swear.” He kissed her cheek. Feeling her pain and sadness just as deeply as she did. “I’ll be right here when you wake up ok?” He nodded at the Doctor who gave the nurse the ok for sedation.
“You promise ? “ She asked as her eyes grew heavy , “I’m so tired , I love you. “ then her eyes grew shut , a soft peaceful snore replaced the painful cries she had been voicing a few moments ago.
“Damn it Gia, I love you too.” he swore. Shaking his head he backed away, knowing she was in good hands. He found himself a seat in the waiting room and thought hard. The shock of what had just happened settled in deep. They’d made a baby? How? When? Ok, he knew how but when? He had to smirk a bit asking himself such a silly question. It could have been one of any of the many times. He was almost always careful... almost. So, he’d forgotten once or twice, he didn’t think......a baby... shit, wow. He ran a hand thru his bed tousled hair. No, no baby, not now. Was he happy or sad? He didn’t even know, he was still in shock. The idea of a baby with Gia had never even entered his mind before but now....
“Well, I'll be god damned.” he laughed a sad kind of laugh. Funny time to realize you’re in love with the woman Jon.
The doctor walked out after what seemed like hours to find his patient’s boyfriend “ Excuse me , Mr Bongiovi ? “
“Hmm? yeah, yeah that’s me... she’s ok right?” he stood quickly. His face hopeful.
“Yes , she is gonna be fine , but I’m sorry she did lose the baby. We did perform a d/c on her and stopped the bleeding and had to give her some blood as well but with some rest, she will be just fine. And she will be have more children. " The Doctor paused casting a sympathetic look towards Jon. I’m sorry I have no explanation for why it happened sometimes , its natures way of when its not right to -- well you know again I’m sorry “
Jon listened, divesting all the words, his brain working over time. he nodded “I ... we... didn’t even know.” He shrugged, a confused look on his face. “I... I’m just glad she’s gonna be ok. I was.......scared.... thank you.... can I see her soon?”
“ You may go in , she’s asking for you . ‘ The doctor said with a sympathetic tone , sometimes he really hated this part of his job “IF everything goes alright she can go home tomorrow . “
“We’re uh... we’re traveling... is... can she?”
“Yes she can travel. She just needs lots of rest and don’t have her overdue it for awhile and lastly no sex for about 6 weeks. Make sure she has a check up within that time frame. One reason for no sex is to heal the other is her body isn't ready for another baby quite so soon. “
Jon nodded, “I’ll make sure she rests and.. thanks.” He grabbed his jacket and made his way back into her room.
A little over a month later of pure blissfulness with Jon, Gia awoke in the middle of the night ,grasping her stomach. At first she thought maybe it was time for Auntie Flo to make her appearance. It had been a good 5 weeks since she had hers and this one was out for vengeance it seemed , she slowly sat up but as she did so another ‘cramp ‘ blindsided her causing her to let out a soft shrill. “ Fuck! “ .
She tried to climb out of bed and make it to the bathroom , but each time she moved the pain grew worse. What the fuck was going on ? She has had bad cramps before but never to the point where she wanted to cry.
Jon stirred when he heard her low swearing and cracked open an eye lid. “S’matter baby? “ He asked sleepily.
Gia gritted through the pain. “ I dunno -- Fuck me this hurts . Thought it was my period coming but this aint right I don’t think ? “
Jon frowned and sat up reaching over to flip on the light. He squinted in the brightness and turned. He placed his hand on Gia’s back and rubbed lightly, reassuringly. “ Want me to get you some aspirin honey?”
“Help me to the bathroom please ? Hell its never been this -- “Gia gasped the moment her feet touched the floor a gush of blood streamed down her leg . “Something isn’t right about this “ she winced doubling over in excruciating pain .
Jon frowned when she gasped and came fully awake. Her appearance finally catching his attention. Her face was white, her forehead beaded with slight dampness. He came around and steadied her looking down he swore. “Sit down babe, I’m calling for help.” He tried to keep the panic out of his voice but it was a hard. His brain raged, what was going on? He crossed to the phone, dialed the front desk and explained that he needed paramedics. placing the phone back into it’s cradle he came back to her. “It’s gonna be ok baby. ok? I don’t know what’s going on but help is coming ok?”
Gia slumped back on the bed ,curling in a ball , trying to will the pain away. Tears glistened her eyes ‘I hope they hurry , it hurts so bad. “ she pleaded her voiced coated with pain. “Its never hurt this bad baby , something is wrong I know it. “
Jon knew something was very wrong. There was much more blood than there should have been, even being a guy he knew what was normal when it came to things like that. He racked his brain. How could this be happening? Wouldn’t he have known if she had been pregnant? He glanced down at the spreading blood and prayed for help to arrive. Obviously not... It seemed like hours but in reality was only minutes before there was a knock and the paramedics announced themselves. He dropped a kiss on her forehead and hurriedly let them in. As they came thru the door asking questions Jon lowered his voice and whispered to the man in charge “I think... i think she’s having a miscarriage.” As strange as it seemed, as careful as he’d been it was the only reason he could think of for this to be happening.
The medic nodded. “Don’t worry sir we’ll take good care of her.” him and his partner immediately went to work. “ Hi ma’am you’ll be just fine. " he said re-assuredly , as he began his quick assessment . then murmured to his partner to radio in this was definitely a miscarriage in progress.
They slowly moved her to the gurney , Gia’s eyes were filled with a mixture of fear and pain , she held her hand out for Jon “I’m scared. “ She had no idea what was goin’ on and at the moment to scared and in pain to care . She just wanted to feel better.
“Don’t worry babe, I’m comin’ with ya. “ He grabbed his jacket and followed the whole group out staying near to the gurney as he could without getting in the way. ‘It’s gonna be ok I promise... trust me?”
Gia nodded as she winced again another sharp pain ripped through her . The medics loaded her quickly and carefully into the ambulance and whisked her off to the hospital which thankfully was only a few short minutes away.
Once at the hospital, The medics unloaded her , speeding her through to an empty room where a doctor was waiting . Gia pleaded with them to let Jon stay “ Please I need him. “ tears were falling down her pale cheeks .
Jon brushed her hair back from her forehead, ‘Baby I just gotta step outside for a few minutes ok? They need some information so they can help you. I won’t be long I swear.” He kissed her cheek. Feeling her pain and sadness just as deeply as she did. “I’ll be right here when you wake up ok?” He nodded at the Doctor who gave the nurse the ok for sedation.
“You promise ? “ She asked as her eyes grew heavy , “I’m so tired , I love you. “ then her eyes grew shut , a soft peaceful snore replaced the painful cries she had been voicing a few moments ago.
“Damn it Gia, I love you too.” he swore. Shaking his head he backed away, knowing she was in good hands. He found himself a seat in the waiting room and thought hard. The shock of what had just happened settled in deep. They’d made a baby? How? When? Ok, he knew how but when? He had to smirk a bit asking himself such a silly question. It could have been one of any of the many times. He was almost always careful... almost. So, he’d forgotten once or twice, he didn’t think......a baby... shit, wow. He ran a hand thru his bed tousled hair. No, no baby, not now. Was he happy or sad? He didn’t even know, he was still in shock. The idea of a baby with Gia had never even entered his mind before but now....
“Well, I'll be god damned.” he laughed a sad kind of laugh. Funny time to realize you’re in love with the woman Jon.
The doctor walked out after what seemed like hours to find his patient’s boyfriend “ Excuse me , Mr Bongiovi ? “
“Hmm? yeah, yeah that’s me... she’s ok right?” he stood quickly. His face hopeful.
“Yes , she is gonna be fine , but I’m sorry she did lose the baby. We did perform a d/c on her and stopped the bleeding and had to give her some blood as well but with some rest, she will be just fine. And she will be have more children. " The Doctor paused casting a sympathetic look towards Jon. I’m sorry I have no explanation for why it happened sometimes , its natures way of when its not right to -- well you know again I’m sorry “
Jon listened, divesting all the words, his brain working over time. he nodded “I ... we... didn’t even know.” He shrugged, a confused look on his face. “I... I’m just glad she’s gonna be ok. I was.......scared.... thank you.... can I see her soon?”
“ You may go in , she’s asking for you . ‘ The doctor said with a sympathetic tone , sometimes he really hated this part of his job “IF everything goes alright she can go home tomorrow . “
“We’re uh... we’re traveling... is... can she?”
“Yes she can travel. She just needs lots of rest and don’t have her overdue it for awhile and lastly no sex for about 6 weeks. Make sure she has a check up within that time frame. One reason for no sex is to heal the other is her body isn't ready for another baby quite so soon. “
Jon nodded, “I’ll make sure she rests and.. thanks.” He grabbed his jacket and made his way back into her room.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Chapter 23
“Where we goin’ Richie?” Emmie peered out the windows as the car made it’s way thru downtown New York City. It was so big! She was so glad that interview was over, if she had to wait another minute she thought she just might die. There was so much to see and they were only there for two days!
RIchie should have known before they left for the interview, something just wasn’t right with Em but before he could inquire about it , they had to go . Once they stepped out of the interview, he had to get her back to the hotel, Not sure how he was gonna bring her down from this high . “Baby , we’re going back to the hotel “ he reached over , pulling her closer to him into a tight embrace.
Emmie hugged him back for a split second the wriggled away far enough to frown at him. “Back to the hotel?” Her disappointment was evident. “But, I thought we might go to central park, or the empire state building or... or something.” She pouted, “Can’t we? Please? Your shows tommorrow so we wont have time! I know I said I was tired before but I’m not now.”
“Not til you come down from your high baby. Can you tell me what you took ? “ Richie asked soothingly into her ear.
Emmie managed to look completely perplexed. This was the second time today someone had told her she was high! As if she took illegal drugs or something! She looked at Richie, a bit of her upbringing showed in tone when she answered. “I didn’t take anything to get me high I just took your energy pills, you know the ones you keep in the white bottle in your knapsack.”
Richie pinched his eyes shut , Damn’t I knew I shouldn’t have lied to her about those “ Darlin’ that wasn’t energy pills , “ He paused briefly “It was amphetamines “ . I only use it when I have had a really bad night the night before and I have to get through a busy early morning “
Emmies frown grew deeper. “Anfet...amphet... am... WHAT?” she scowled at him. She took drugs?? He took drugs?? what? Her head was spinning so fast she couldn't comprehend anything.
‘Amphetamines its used as a pick me up. I didn’t think darlin’ you would have “ Richie let out an exasperated sigh. “I don’t use it that often , honest baby “
She sat perched on his knee, her foot tapping rapidly on the floor board. “You take drugs? You take drugs!” She slid off his lap and balled up her tiny fist then slugged him solidly in the arm. “Richard Stephen Sambora you got me high!” she accused indignantly.
‘I didn’t I didn’t know you were gonna take it baby , I swear “ Richie winced as her small fist connected with his arm , it hadn’t hurt not physically anyway . The guilt part now that was a different story .
“You lied!”
“I well -- yes I did I’m sorry “ Richie dipped his head in shame “ Forgive me ? “
“Hmph!” She slid over against the other door, her arms crossed and didn’t answer him. Well this is just great! I’m high!? She was angry. Her day was ruined and he’d lied to her. If he lied about those darn pills what else did he lie about? And he did drink too much! Even if he wouldn’t admit it! She wasn’t so high she forgot about that! Now what was she gonna do?? What did someone do when they were high on drugs? She didn’t even know. How long would this last? She shot Richie an indignant, silent glare.
Richie you dumb-fuck! what the hell were you thinkin’ ? He admonished himself “Honey I’m sorry please I figured if I told you the truth you would -- leave or somethin’ . I’m sorry I lied “ He slid over to her but her body language spoke louder to him if she would scream at him . He sat back , resting his head against the back of the seat , Great just great fuckhead, you fucked things up already .
Emmie tried to make sense of what she now knew but her head was all fuzzed and her body just didnt want to sit still. Now that she knew what was going on she wasn’t sure she liked this feelin at all. As they pulled up to the hotel, she didn’t speak a word, merely grabbed the key from his hand and exited, heading to their room. She had to do something, anything. Didn’t he know how dangerous it was?? Why would he do it? Tiredness was no excuse! Energy pills, coffee, that was one thing but drugs? She fought the urge to stomp her foot in frustration as the elevator doors opened onto their floor. She fumbled with the key, swearing softly under her breath until the door finally opened. Once inside she tossed the key on the bed and dove for his knapsack. Fishing out the offending pills she shot him a look as she crossed to the bathroom and dumped the entire bottle into the toilet then flushed not once but twice. Once all evidence was gone she flung the bottle at his feet and dared him to say a word.
Richie watched her bolt into the hotel , and with quick long strides caught up with her , not a word said the entire elevator ride and to the room. He watched her dash around the room with a confused expression as she preceded to dump his whole stash of Amphetamines down the toilet. “Baby?” He called out to her but she stood steadfast , anger radiating in her blue eyes , arms crossed . Would she ever forgive him ?
“No! No, don’t you baby me Mr.!” She shook her finger at him, the high of the drugs and her anger taking hold, making her unable to control her emotions. “those things could kill you!” she shouted then tears welled up involuntarily. “Kill you Richie!! Then... then.... what would I do????” She was shaking from just the thought. How many times had she seen him go to that bottle and take what seemed like handfuls at a time? My God, those and all the drinking mixed? She sat down hard right where she was on the floor and shook her head, “What would I do?” The last question was said in barely a whisper. More to herself than to him.
“Baby, “ Richie called out again , as he bent down to join her on the floor “ I’m sorry I didn’t think well we don’t think on the road , seriously its just out there and well we try it , I didn’t think this was as bad as the other stuff that's out there “
Emmie shook her head. She couldn’t speak. Didn’t he understand? She loved him! If anything happened to him it would kill her! She simply looked at him sadly.
Richie snaked his arms around her , hugging her tightly then softly stroked her hair. “I promise not to anything like that again , I didn’t think of the consequences really we don’t . ‘ He hoped and prayed he just didn’t totally fuck things up with probably the best thing that happened to him in a long time. Her reaction took him a bit off guard none of his girlfriends before cared , hell they joined right in . She’s not like his other girlfriends he sternly reminded himself.
She wanted to pull away, she was still that angry, she was still that high. But, the instinct to simply hold onto him won out. She melted into his arms and closed her eyes. Her heart was still speeding along and her head wasn’t exactly calm but his embrace mellowed her out just enough for it to be bearable. How long they sat like that, she didn’t know. She didn’t care, she was just happy things were starting to feel somewhat normal again and that those dreaded drugs were gone. After some time she buried her face in his shirt and inhaled his scent then whispered “ I love you Richie.”
He leaned in pressing a kiss to her forehead , paused a moment as thoughts raced through his head , She loved him ? Did he love her back ? Yes I think I do -- well else did I feel like if she walked out , his heart feeling the beginning pangs of heartache . “I love you too Em darlin’ “ , he tilted her chin and sweetly kissed her .
RIchie should have known before they left for the interview, something just wasn’t right with Em but before he could inquire about it , they had to go . Once they stepped out of the interview, he had to get her back to the hotel, Not sure how he was gonna bring her down from this high . “Baby , we’re going back to the hotel “ he reached over , pulling her closer to him into a tight embrace.
Emmie hugged him back for a split second the wriggled away far enough to frown at him. “Back to the hotel?” Her disappointment was evident. “But, I thought we might go to central park, or the empire state building or... or something.” She pouted, “Can’t we? Please? Your shows tommorrow so we wont have time! I know I said I was tired before but I’m not now.”
“Not til you come down from your high baby. Can you tell me what you took ? “ Richie asked soothingly into her ear.
Emmie managed to look completely perplexed. This was the second time today someone had told her she was high! As if she took illegal drugs or something! She looked at Richie, a bit of her upbringing showed in tone when she answered. “I didn’t take anything to get me high I just took your energy pills, you know the ones you keep in the white bottle in your knapsack.”
Richie pinched his eyes shut , Damn’t I knew I shouldn’t have lied to her about those “ Darlin’ that wasn’t energy pills , “ He paused briefly “It was amphetamines “ . I only use it when I have had a really bad night the night before and I have to get through a busy early morning “
Emmies frown grew deeper. “Anfet...amphet... am... WHAT?” she scowled at him. She took drugs?? He took drugs?? what? Her head was spinning so fast she couldn't comprehend anything.
‘Amphetamines its used as a pick me up. I didn’t think darlin’ you would have “ Richie let out an exasperated sigh. “I don’t use it that often , honest baby “
She sat perched on his knee, her foot tapping rapidly on the floor board. “You take drugs? You take drugs!” She slid off his lap and balled up her tiny fist then slugged him solidly in the arm. “Richard Stephen Sambora you got me high!” she accused indignantly.
‘I didn’t I didn’t know you were gonna take it baby , I swear “ Richie winced as her small fist connected with his arm , it hadn’t hurt not physically anyway . The guilt part now that was a different story .
“You lied!”
“I well -- yes I did I’m sorry “ Richie dipped his head in shame “ Forgive me ? “
“Hmph!” She slid over against the other door, her arms crossed and didn’t answer him. Well this is just great! I’m high!? She was angry. Her day was ruined and he’d lied to her. If he lied about those darn pills what else did he lie about? And he did drink too much! Even if he wouldn’t admit it! She wasn’t so high she forgot about that! Now what was she gonna do?? What did someone do when they were high on drugs? She didn’t even know. How long would this last? She shot Richie an indignant, silent glare.
Richie you dumb-fuck! what the hell were you thinkin’ ? He admonished himself “Honey I’m sorry please I figured if I told you the truth you would -- leave or somethin’ . I’m sorry I lied “ He slid over to her but her body language spoke louder to him if she would scream at him . He sat back , resting his head against the back of the seat , Great just great fuckhead, you fucked things up already .
Emmie tried to make sense of what she now knew but her head was all fuzzed and her body just didnt want to sit still. Now that she knew what was going on she wasn’t sure she liked this feelin at all. As they pulled up to the hotel, she didn’t speak a word, merely grabbed the key from his hand and exited, heading to their room. She had to do something, anything. Didn’t he know how dangerous it was?? Why would he do it? Tiredness was no excuse! Energy pills, coffee, that was one thing but drugs? She fought the urge to stomp her foot in frustration as the elevator doors opened onto their floor. She fumbled with the key, swearing softly under her breath until the door finally opened. Once inside she tossed the key on the bed and dove for his knapsack. Fishing out the offending pills she shot him a look as she crossed to the bathroom and dumped the entire bottle into the toilet then flushed not once but twice. Once all evidence was gone she flung the bottle at his feet and dared him to say a word.
Richie watched her bolt into the hotel , and with quick long strides caught up with her , not a word said the entire elevator ride and to the room. He watched her dash around the room with a confused expression as she preceded to dump his whole stash of Amphetamines down the toilet. “Baby?” He called out to her but she stood steadfast , anger radiating in her blue eyes , arms crossed . Would she ever forgive him ?
“No! No, don’t you baby me Mr.!” She shook her finger at him, the high of the drugs and her anger taking hold, making her unable to control her emotions. “those things could kill you!” she shouted then tears welled up involuntarily. “Kill you Richie!! Then... then.... what would I do????” She was shaking from just the thought. How many times had she seen him go to that bottle and take what seemed like handfuls at a time? My God, those and all the drinking mixed? She sat down hard right where she was on the floor and shook her head, “What would I do?” The last question was said in barely a whisper. More to herself than to him.
“Baby, “ Richie called out again , as he bent down to join her on the floor “ I’m sorry I didn’t think well we don’t think on the road , seriously its just out there and well we try it , I didn’t think this was as bad as the other stuff that's out there “
Emmie shook her head. She couldn’t speak. Didn’t he understand? She loved him! If anything happened to him it would kill her! She simply looked at him sadly.
Richie snaked his arms around her , hugging her tightly then softly stroked her hair. “I promise not to anything like that again , I didn’t think of the consequences really we don’t . ‘ He hoped and prayed he just didn’t totally fuck things up with probably the best thing that happened to him in a long time. Her reaction took him a bit off guard none of his girlfriends before cared , hell they joined right in . She’s not like his other girlfriends he sternly reminded himself.
She wanted to pull away, she was still that angry, she was still that high. But, the instinct to simply hold onto him won out. She melted into his arms and closed her eyes. Her heart was still speeding along and her head wasn’t exactly calm but his embrace mellowed her out just enough for it to be bearable. How long they sat like that, she didn’t know. She didn’t care, she was just happy things were starting to feel somewhat normal again and that those dreaded drugs were gone. After some time she buried her face in his shirt and inhaled his scent then whispered “ I love you Richie.”
He leaned in pressing a kiss to her forehead , paused a moment as thoughts raced through his head , She loved him ? Did he love her back ? Yes I think I do -- well else did I feel like if she walked out , his heart feeling the beginning pangs of heartache . “I love you too Em darlin’ “ , he tilted her chin and sweetly kissed her .
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Chapter 22
Surprisingly they hadn’t even been missed. The boys were still in with the radio dj’s and a few moments later , they stepped out .Richie quickly rushing off a very high Em into a car apparently he had noticed she had been too and wanted to get her back to the hotel as soon as possible . She chuckled it was very clear that Richie hadn’t given her anything , Em stumbled onto something Richie has taken around her. But what ? She definitely made a point to ask Jon later.
A few moments after Richie hustled out of the building , Jon exited with Doc whom yet again were in a deep conversation before Doc walked off flashing her a curt smile and out the door he went too.
Jon sighed a relieved sigh and grabbed Gia’s hand “Now, lets go get some grub eh? I’m starved.”
Gia nodded. “I think my stomach wants to eat itself , I’m so hungry “ she followed him out the doors and into the awaiting car. “So what was grumpy ass bitching about now ? “ She asked as she settled into the backseat.
Jon shrugged “Same shit different day Gia.” He smiled down at her as they got into a waiting cab. “So ya wanna go back to the room and order in or ya wanna go find something else?”
Gia smiled naughtily. “ IF we go back to the room , I don’t believe we will eat -- food that is and my stomach needs nourishment. “
Jon snorted,” You’re so right babe.” He leaned forward and spoke to the driver telling him where to go then sat back and relaxed.
Gia smiled when a few moments later , they arrived at Antonio’s again “ You didn’t ? Thank you. “ her eyes glittering with happiness . , She then took his hand and stepped out of the cab.
Jon simply smiled and led her back in, they were seated and drinks were ordered. He sat back and watched her. Was she a distraction like Doc said. Yes, yes she was. a big distraction but... it was a distraction he wanted, no needed. A distraction that grounded him when his head got to big for his shoulders.
A comfortable silence befell them , while they waited for their drinks. Gia wondered nervously if she should bring up the dreaded relationship topic or not , sucking in a deep breath then slowly exhaling , she spoke. “ I did some thinkin’ today. “ Her eyes gazed down at the napkin, she was nervously playing with. “ thinking about us and where this was headed. “ she swallowed hard not sure if she wanted to meet his eyes when he answered.
He raised an eyebrow. “Oh yeah?” He casually took a sip of his drink. So she’d been thinking too. That was a good sign. Or was it? he frowned for split second. “So uh, what was the verdict?” He cautiously asked while racking his brain for something, anything he may have done.... or not done to piss her off.
Gia chewed on her bottom lip , her gaze meeting his. “ I’m not used to this -- I don’t know what to do -- next I never gotten this far before. “ she reluctantly admitted.
Jon nodded thoughtfully. Ok, so she hasn’t told me to fuck off yet, that’s a good thing. “Yeah, well I have, but um, my track records not really the greatest so...” He chuckled a bit nervously. “We’re kind in the same boat here I think,” After a few more moments of thoughtful silence he asked, “Are you happy out here Gia?”
“I am for the first time I hadn’t thought about my family , the resentment gone. “ Gia softly smiled “Even my Nana, and I think about her everday usually. “
“Does it bother you when I’m busy?”
Gia thought about it for a moment. “ Well I miss you but I know its your job and thats your nature to work work work. “ she winked “No it doesn’t bother me. “
“You miss me?” he grinned
“I do “ She smiled shyly
Jon nodded and reached across the table grasping her hand gently. “Well, I don't want to miss you, and that's why I...” He cleared his throat before he spoke. “Why I’d really like it if you’d stay with me, here, on the road, be my girl... ya know?” He looked at her hopefully.
Her eyes widened as she searched his in depth “ You really want me to be your girl ? I never been any-one's girl before -- I know I talked big when we met but I really am not like that. “
“I know.” he reassured her.
“So whats next , bet you think its funny for a girl of my age to have her first boyfriend at 21. “ Gia said as a tinge of red crept up on her cheeks.
“Nah.. I think it’s kinda cool actually.”
Gia smiled ,she leaned over and kissed him , the moment she did their dinner came . Her eyes lit up good ole fashioned Fettuccine Alfredo , garlic bread and a green salad/vine-grate . “Oh this smells delicious “ a with a lick of her lips she dove into the feast before her.
Jon watched as she ate with relish. What’s next she’d asked. Hell if he knew but at least they were on the same page. He knew now she felt just like he did. He smiled as he scooped a big bite to his lips. It was nice to know you weren’t alone. So, so nice.
After dinner they shared a slice of Carmel drizzled cheesecake . Gia cut a piece with her fork then fed it to Jon . She was his girlfriend , giddy was an understatement in how she was feeling then she remembered the other thing she had wanted to discuss with him ‘Baby , did you happen notice how -- well high Em was ?”
High? Emmie? Jon frowned as he chewed “Uh, no not really why?” Sure, Richie had been a little wired today, but he always was. Jon knew Richie did his own thing where that was concerned and didn’t say a word so long as it didn’t interfere with business. Rich was his best friend but still a grown man and didn’t need him as a babysitter.
“Well while we were waiting on you to say she couldn’t sit still was an understatement . We went for a walk and I barely could keep up with her , had to take off my heels and practically run after her . And she talked about a mile a minute . She was on something I am sure of it. “
Jon looked shocked, utterly and truly shocked. “Are you sure??” He even scratched his head in bewilderment. The thought of Richie’s lil lady higher than a kite was just so off the wall to him.
Gia nodded “ I am positive it was more than coffee , I got the blisters on my feet to prove it. “ she chuckled lightly .
Jon sat thinking silently for a moment. ‘Well, I mean, ok I know Rich dabbles in...stuff. hell, I’ve dabbled in stuff.” he shifted a bit uncomfortably in his chair. He felt like he was betraying his best friend admitting it. “But I don’t think he’s give it to Em... I don’t think?”
“I don’t think he knowingly gave it to her the way he booked out of the radio station , I think he did figure it out though “ Gia added in a bit of defense of Richie .
Jon nodded, “Yeah he’d know what signs to look for that’s for sure.”
“I’m just wondering what ? I’m concerned for her. She is very impressionable. “ Gia remarked .
Jon reached across the table and squeezed her hand gently. “I wouldn’t worry too much, honestly I’m sure Rich will take care of her.”
“I hope so , she really hasn’t been around this type of -- well you know , sex drugs and rock and roll lifestyle-- in her mind if she sees him doing it then it must be ok for her to do it. “ Gia explained .
“Maybe she’s just experimenting ya know.”
“True , I guess then but if it becomes a habit ? Then I may have to say something. “ Gia warned not wanting to put a damper on their wonderful evening but she was very protective of her cousin
“I think you’re just over reacting cause your in shock. It’s just so unlike her ya know. I think you should just keep an eye out but maybe not make a big deal about it cause I mean, hell Gia your not much older than she is so I’m sure you remember how it was when you first started tryin new things. You sure didn’t want someone preachin to ya about it right? Even if they had a good point.”
“Yea, I suppose you’re right , I’m sorry if I’ve overreacted just never seen her like that or even consider wanting to try it , hell she has never been drunk before. “
Jon squeezed Gia’s hand affectionately then chuckled “Babe, the girls been shacked up in Richie Sambora’s hotel room for the last what? Three weeks? I guarantee you she’s been drunk... VERY drunk.” he winked.
Gia laughed “ I supposed now that I think about it , you’re right , I guess I need to let her grow up to huh ? Oh hell, Uncle Daniel will have a coronary if he knew. “ then finished the last of her wine.
Jon snorted ‘Well I sure the hell aint tellin him!” he threw back his head and laughed, ‘Hell no.”
‘Why he scare you ? “ Gia teased “ He’s all bark no bite -- well most of the time anyway. “
“Yeah, I’m just glad he ain't YOUR dad.” Jon chuckled and paid the bill, scribbling his signature on the credit slip he helped Gia out of her chair. Taking her hand and leading her out the door he chuckled, “I do wanna be a fly on the wall though next time he and Mr. Sambora meet.” Jon winked and they both crawled into the cab heading back toward the hotel and the comfort of their room. Laughing all the way at visions of the confrontation.
A few moments after Richie hustled out of the building , Jon exited with Doc whom yet again were in a deep conversation before Doc walked off flashing her a curt smile and out the door he went too.
Jon sighed a relieved sigh and grabbed Gia’s hand “Now, lets go get some grub eh? I’m starved.”
Gia nodded. “I think my stomach wants to eat itself , I’m so hungry “ she followed him out the doors and into the awaiting car. “So what was grumpy ass bitching about now ? “ She asked as she settled into the backseat.
Jon shrugged “Same shit different day Gia.” He smiled down at her as they got into a waiting cab. “So ya wanna go back to the room and order in or ya wanna go find something else?”
Gia smiled naughtily. “ IF we go back to the room , I don’t believe we will eat -- food that is and my stomach needs nourishment. “
Jon snorted,” You’re so right babe.” He leaned forward and spoke to the driver telling him where to go then sat back and relaxed.
Gia smiled when a few moments later , they arrived at Antonio’s again “ You didn’t ? Thank you. “ her eyes glittering with happiness . , She then took his hand and stepped out of the cab.
Jon simply smiled and led her back in, they were seated and drinks were ordered. He sat back and watched her. Was she a distraction like Doc said. Yes, yes she was. a big distraction but... it was a distraction he wanted, no needed. A distraction that grounded him when his head got to big for his shoulders.
A comfortable silence befell them , while they waited for their drinks. Gia wondered nervously if she should bring up the dreaded relationship topic or not , sucking in a deep breath then slowly exhaling , she spoke. “ I did some thinkin’ today. “ Her eyes gazed down at the napkin, she was nervously playing with. “ thinking about us and where this was headed. “ she swallowed hard not sure if she wanted to meet his eyes when he answered.
He raised an eyebrow. “Oh yeah?” He casually took a sip of his drink. So she’d been thinking too. That was a good sign. Or was it? he frowned for split second. “So uh, what was the verdict?” He cautiously asked while racking his brain for something, anything he may have done.... or not done to piss her off.
Gia chewed on her bottom lip , her gaze meeting his. “ I’m not used to this -- I don’t know what to do -- next I never gotten this far before. “ she reluctantly admitted.
Jon nodded thoughtfully. Ok, so she hasn’t told me to fuck off yet, that’s a good thing. “Yeah, well I have, but um, my track records not really the greatest so...” He chuckled a bit nervously. “We’re kind in the same boat here I think,” After a few more moments of thoughtful silence he asked, “Are you happy out here Gia?”
“I am for the first time I hadn’t thought about my family , the resentment gone. “ Gia softly smiled “Even my Nana, and I think about her everday usually. “
“Does it bother you when I’m busy?”
Gia thought about it for a moment. “ Well I miss you but I know its your job and thats your nature to work work work. “ she winked “No it doesn’t bother me. “
“You miss me?” he grinned
“I do “ She smiled shyly
Jon nodded and reached across the table grasping her hand gently. “Well, I don't want to miss you, and that's why I...” He cleared his throat before he spoke. “Why I’d really like it if you’d stay with me, here, on the road, be my girl... ya know?” He looked at her hopefully.
Her eyes widened as she searched his in depth “ You really want me to be your girl ? I never been any-one's girl before -- I know I talked big when we met but I really am not like that. “
“I know.” he reassured her.
“So whats next , bet you think its funny for a girl of my age to have her first boyfriend at 21. “ Gia said as a tinge of red crept up on her cheeks.
“Nah.. I think it’s kinda cool actually.”
Gia smiled ,she leaned over and kissed him , the moment she did their dinner came . Her eyes lit up good ole fashioned Fettuccine Alfredo , garlic bread and a green salad/vine-grate . “Oh this smells delicious “ a with a lick of her lips she dove into the feast before her.
Jon watched as she ate with relish. What’s next she’d asked. Hell if he knew but at least they were on the same page. He knew now she felt just like he did. He smiled as he scooped a big bite to his lips. It was nice to know you weren’t alone. So, so nice.
After dinner they shared a slice of Carmel drizzled cheesecake . Gia cut a piece with her fork then fed it to Jon . She was his girlfriend , giddy was an understatement in how she was feeling then she remembered the other thing she had wanted to discuss with him ‘Baby , did you happen notice how -- well high Em was ?”
High? Emmie? Jon frowned as he chewed “Uh, no not really why?” Sure, Richie had been a little wired today, but he always was. Jon knew Richie did his own thing where that was concerned and didn’t say a word so long as it didn’t interfere with business. Rich was his best friend but still a grown man and didn’t need him as a babysitter.
“Well while we were waiting on you to say she couldn’t sit still was an understatement . We went for a walk and I barely could keep up with her , had to take off my heels and practically run after her . And she talked about a mile a minute . She was on something I am sure of it. “
Jon looked shocked, utterly and truly shocked. “Are you sure??” He even scratched his head in bewilderment. The thought of Richie’s lil lady higher than a kite was just so off the wall to him.
Gia nodded “ I am positive it was more than coffee , I got the blisters on my feet to prove it. “ she chuckled lightly .
Jon sat thinking silently for a moment. ‘Well, I mean, ok I know Rich dabbles in...stuff. hell, I’ve dabbled in stuff.” he shifted a bit uncomfortably in his chair. He felt like he was betraying his best friend admitting it. “But I don’t think he’s give it to Em... I don’t think?”
“I don’t think he knowingly gave it to her the way he booked out of the radio station , I think he did figure it out though “ Gia added in a bit of defense of Richie .
Jon nodded, “Yeah he’d know what signs to look for that’s for sure.”
“I’m just wondering what ? I’m concerned for her. She is very impressionable. “ Gia remarked .
Jon reached across the table and squeezed her hand gently. “I wouldn’t worry too much, honestly I’m sure Rich will take care of her.”
“I hope so , she really hasn’t been around this type of -- well you know , sex drugs and rock and roll lifestyle-- in her mind if she sees him doing it then it must be ok for her to do it. “ Gia explained .
“Maybe she’s just experimenting ya know.”
“True , I guess then but if it becomes a habit ? Then I may have to say something. “ Gia warned not wanting to put a damper on their wonderful evening but she was very protective of her cousin
“I think you’re just over reacting cause your in shock. It’s just so unlike her ya know. I think you should just keep an eye out but maybe not make a big deal about it cause I mean, hell Gia your not much older than she is so I’m sure you remember how it was when you first started tryin new things. You sure didn’t want someone preachin to ya about it right? Even if they had a good point.”
“Yea, I suppose you’re right , I’m sorry if I’ve overreacted just never seen her like that or even consider wanting to try it , hell she has never been drunk before. “
Jon squeezed Gia’s hand affectionately then chuckled “Babe, the girls been shacked up in Richie Sambora’s hotel room for the last what? Three weeks? I guarantee you she’s been drunk... VERY drunk.” he winked.
Gia laughed “ I supposed now that I think about it , you’re right , I guess I need to let her grow up to huh ? Oh hell, Uncle Daniel will have a coronary if he knew. “ then finished the last of her wine.
Jon snorted ‘Well I sure the hell aint tellin him!” he threw back his head and laughed, ‘Hell no.”
‘Why he scare you ? “ Gia teased “ He’s all bark no bite -- well most of the time anyway. “
“Yeah, I’m just glad he ain't YOUR dad.” Jon chuckled and paid the bill, scribbling his signature on the credit slip he helped Gia out of her chair. Taking her hand and leading her out the door he chuckled, “I do wanna be a fly on the wall though next time he and Mr. Sambora meet.” Jon winked and they both crawled into the cab heading back toward the hotel and the comfort of their room. Laughing all the way at visions of the confrontation.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Chapter 21
Emmie sat quietly in the corner of the lounge while Richie and the other guys were on the air in the studio. She waved excitedly as Jon scurried past her and into the glass room, Gia following closely. She watched as Jon dropped a kiss on Gia’s forehead then turned her towards the couches before disappearing into the studio. “Hey Gia!” She grinned.
Gia momentarily watched Jon til he disappeared then turned to her cousin “Heya Em, how goes it ? “ she asked taking a seat beside her “ I know we’re late “ wincing “But he had to come see me at Antonio’s , wasn’t that just so sweet of him “
“Yeah!” Emmie agreed. She fidgeted and got up to pace groaning “God, I’m so bored Gia.” she glanced out the window tapping her foot.
‘“Well they did say there would be parts of the road that would be ? “ Gia gently reminded her . “It’s better than being at the hotel alone , don’tcha think ? “
“Yeah, yeah yeah yeah.” She sighed and paced a bit then groaned. She’d been so damn tired this morning. She was gonna stay back at the hotel and just relax but Richie wanted her to come along. He seemed to want her with him non-stop and normally she wouldn’t have minded, not at all. She loved being with him. She just had such a hard time keeping up with him! Her was like freakin’ superman! She sat beside Gia for merely a moment the popped back up again to pace. “I hope they aren’t here long.”
Gia watched her friend and chuckled “ Damn girl I thought you had more patience than this , What’s going on ? Other than being bored ? “ she asked “They could be awhile , since Jon was late . I just hope he didn’t get too much shit for it “ God her pacing was driving her nuts , she stood , gently grasped Em “Please sit you are making me anxious “
“Sorry” Emmie muttered and sat. She drummed her nails on the table beside her then sighed. “I just can’t sit here!I wanna do SOMETHING!” She popped back up. “Let’s go.... um... let’s go for a walk!”
“Ok we can go for a walk ? What is wrong with you ? I never seen you so edgy ? “ She asked then glanced back to the glass window where the guys were . “But wait a sec , we should leave a message with the secretary so they don’t think we took off for higher ground. " She chuckled then walked over to the young brunette sitting behind the receptionist desk “ Excuse me ma’am could you do us a favor , we’re stepping out for a moment could you give Mr Sambora and Mr Bon Jovi a message just in case we aren’t back when they are finished. Tell them we went for a walk be back shortly “
The secretary jotted down the message and watched as the two women rushed out the door.
Emmie chatted non-stop walking no-where, simply walking and chatting chatting and walking. She shot about 20 questions out at Gia all at once then kept walking and looked at her expectantly for answers.
Gia shot her a puzzled look “ Em , what the fuck you on ? I can’t keep up with the questions you just fired at me ? “ She struggled to keep up with her stride in the heels she had chosen to wear for lunch today .
“On? huh?” Emmie looked confused, she glanced down at Gia’s heels and shook her head. “Gia haven’t you learned yet, tennis shoes..... comfort!” she admonished her friend playfully.
“I know but I wanted to look nice for Jon, He loves heels “ Gia grinned “Besides didn’t know we were goin’ on a run , thought it was just a walk “
Emmie frowned “Were not running.” She shrugged and tried to slow her steps a bit. God Gia was so slow today!
“Yes, we are , hold on “ Gia grunted to a stop , reached down pulled off her shoes “ There now So where’s the fire? “
“What fire?” Emmie frowned. “So what’s up with Jon? He’s been arguing with the mean little fat guy a lot lately.”
With a roll of her eyes , Gia answered in an irritated tone “ I guess the baldie doesn’t care too much for us being on the road , says we are distracting “
Emmie grinned “Well we are!” she laughed. She loved distracting Richie. It was so easy to do! And fun!
“Emmilia You’re high ! “ Gia exclaimed “That’s why your stuck in fast mode “
Emmie frowned, “Am not.”
“Are too ! What did you take ? “ Gia asked , grabbing her arm to try and slow her down and face her .
“I didn’t take anything.” She lied and willed herself to try to act normal.” Crap I didn’t think she’d notice! “I just drank a whole lot of coffee this morning mmkay? So yeah I’m on overdrive but shit, who cares! Look Gia... it’s a beautiful day and damn it they are STILL in there wasting it away answering silly questions when they should be enjoying the DAY!” Emmie groaned in frustration, “Come on let’s head back maybe they’ll be done soon hmm?”
Gia watched her cousin in a amused bewilderment , She definitely high on what she wasn’t so sure , and she was gonna be asking Jon what he thought when she was able too . So she just let the subject drop for now “ Sure lets head back because girl you’re run me into the ground trying to keep up with you “
“Wuss” Emmie called over her shoulder laughing as they made their way back to the radio station.
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