Chapter 25

Gia fought back the tears, how could she not know she was pregnant , now it was gone , no chance of getting used to the idea poof. gone natta , and her heart broke for her lost child . What could Jon think of her for not knowing . Her head was turned , as she gazed the wall , she didn’t hear him come in .

“Hey” he reached out and touched a lock of hair gently. She looked so sad. “Told ya I’d be right here.”

Gia turned on her side to face him , she reached his hand , grasping it close to her  “I’m sorry so sorry , I had no idea honestly “ she rambled quietly , tears welled in her eyes .

Sorry? she was sorry? Why was she sorry? He frowned, “Gia, it’s not your fault, it’s not any-ones fault these things just happen.”

“But I should have known, how could not know I was pregnant . A woman is supposed to know these things and I didn't “ Gia sobbed “I didn’t even get a chance to get used to the idea , not like it probably was the right time for you anyway but still “

“Gia, Gia...” He sighed and slipped onto the bed pulling her into his arms. “Maybe it wasn’t the right time, but that doesn’t mean tomorrow isn’t.” As soon as the words were out of his mouth he wondered. Did I just really say that? Could I be a father? He had no doubt that Gia would make a wonderful mother but him a father? He was a fuck-off most days and did nothing to change the fact even though he was well aware. What kind of father would he be traipsing around the globe, living the fast life. No, it definitely wasn’t the right time for that. Then why do I still find myself thinking about how nice it would be?

Gia stared at him for a few moments , Did he really mean that ? Did he want a baby with her ? She hadn’t even thought that far ahead but when they told her she lost his baby , it left a deep hole in her heart , she didn’t know was there.  The more she watched him , the sadness tucked deeply behind those blue eyes it tugged at her heart , What would they have done if this baby would have survived? She hadn’t a clue but seeing the sadness in his eyes there was no doubt he was grieving as much as she was considering they hadn’t had a chance to wrap their minds around that she had been pregnant  “I just can’t believe I didn’t know . “ her hand absentmindedly slid down to her stomach.  “A baby , I never even thought about it now it seems that's all I think about . “ It hit her what he had said tomorrow “Wait , did you just say what I think you just said , you wanna try again? “


Jon paused, did he? “Well uh, I don’t know Gia, I don’t know if I would say we should try but I,” He frowned as he tried to get his thoughts and feeling together in a way that would make sense to her. “I don’t think I really wanna worry about stopping it. “ That was the truth. Why should they take precautions? Why not just let nature take it’s course. In his mind it would be like a sign. If it happened again then it was meant to be. If not, well then they knew. The guy upstairs always knew what was best. He truly believed that.

Gia thought over what he said it made sense , if it did happen again , she would make sure she would do everything right this time.  She would take notice of all the signs , then a dreaded fear struck her , She gazed up “ What if I can’t carry a baby? “ She prayed she could.  It was just one of those things , the doctor said Yea maybe medically but to her emotionally it was more than one of those things . A woman was born to do this -- why did she feel like a failure.

“No, no baby, you’re fine really.” He rubbed her arms reassuringly and hugged her against him. “Believe it or not the Dr. said this is normal, nothing is wrong at all your perfectly fine and after some rest and healing, you’re good to go. Seriously Gia, that's what he told me and he’d know. It was just a fluke.”

She hugged him tightly with a slight smile spoke  “Yea he told me too , I’m Italian we’re built to have ton’s of babies “ she tried to joke  “You know we have to find other ways to pass the time for a few weeks ‘ her hands resting on his arms , that caressed her .

He chuckled a bit “Yeah I know but we’ll be ok. You and me, we seem to be pretty good at pulling fun out of our asses ya know.”

A burst of laughter escaped Gia, “ Yea we do , don’t we ? “ pausing for a moment , she glanced up at him “OH this should really give the asshole plenty of ammunition to fire at you , Are you ready for another lecture ? I honestly haven’t meant neither has Em meant to cause any trouble for you . “ her eyes searching his .

Jon shrugged “I don’t want you or Emmie worrying about Doc ok? and that’s an order.”  he dropped a kiss on her cheek.

“We just don’t want any trouble for you is all “ Gia answered her finger stroking his cheek

“You let me worry about me ok?” He kissed her tenderly “I got this...”

‘I love you , I can worry about you if I want “ Gia smirked then grew serious “Does anyone know I’m here ?  “


His face broke out in big grin at her confession. “I love you too and yes I made a few phone calls don’t worry, besides your outta here in the morning so I just told everyone to get some sleep. I took care of everything.”

“Thank you , you’re so good to me . If you’re fan’s knew just how sweet you are, I might have to fight them off “ She said trying to stifle a yawn .

He chuckled “You rest now baby ok?”

Her eyes drifted close “Ummhmm , you ain’t leavin’ are you ? “ snuggling down against his warm embrace , the steady beat of his heart lulling her to a peaceful sleep.

“No, I’m not going anywhere, I promise.”

“Good, “ Was the last words spoken , as Gia drifted off , the hole in her heart was still there but with Jon being there made things all right and that's all she needed .

Chapter 24

Chapter 24

A little over a month later of pure blissfulness with Jon, Gia awoke in the middle of the night ,grasping her stomach. At first she thought maybe it was time for Auntie Flo to make her appearance.  It had been a good 5 weeks since she had hers and this one was out for vengeance it seemed , she slowly sat up but as she did so another ‘cramp ‘ blindsided her causing her to let out a soft shrill. “ Fuck! “ .

She tried to climb out of bed and make it to the bathroom , but each time she moved the pain grew worse. What the fuck was going on ? She has had bad cramps before but never to the point where she wanted to cry.

Jon stirred when he heard her low swearing and cracked open an eye lid. “S’matter baby? “ He asked sleepily.

Gia gritted through the pain. “ I dunno -- Fuck me this hurts . Thought it was my period coming but this aint right I don’t think ? “

Jon frowned and sat up reaching over to flip on the light. He squinted in the brightness and turned. He placed his hand on Gia’s back and rubbed lightly, reassuringly. “ Want me to get you some aspirin honey?”

“Help me to the bathroom please ? Hell its never been this -- “Gia gasped the moment her feet touched the floor a gush of blood streamed down her leg . “Something isn’t right about this “ she winced doubling over in excruciating pain .

Jon frowned when she gasped and came fully awake. Her appearance finally catching his attention. Her face was white, her forehead beaded with slight dampness. He came around and steadied her looking down he swore. “Sit down babe, I’m calling for help.” He tried to keep the panic out of his voice but it was a hard. His brain raged, what was going on? He crossed to the phone, dialed the front desk and explained that he needed paramedics. placing the phone back into it’s cradle he came back to her. “It’s gonna be ok baby. ok? I don’t know what’s going on but help is coming ok?”

Gia slumped back on the bed ,curling in a ball , trying to will the pain away. Tears glistened her eyes ‘I hope they hurry , it hurts so bad. “ she pleaded her voiced coated with pain. “Its never hurt this bad baby , something is wrong I know it. “

Jon knew something was very wrong. There was much more blood than there should have been, even being a guy he knew what was normal when it came to things like that. He racked his brain. How could this be happening? Wouldn’t he have known if she had been pregnant? He glanced down at the spreading blood and prayed for help to arrive. Obviously not... It seemed like hours but in reality was only minutes before there was a knock and the paramedics announced themselves. He dropped a kiss on her forehead and hurriedly let them in. As they came thru the door asking questions Jon lowered his voice and whispered to the man in charge “I think... i think she’s having a miscarriage.” As strange as it seemed, as careful as he’d been it was the only reason he could think of for this to be happening.

The medic nodded. “Don’t worry sir we’ll take good care of her.” him and his partner immediately went to work. “ Hi ma’am you’ll be just fine. " he said re-assuredly , as he began his quick assessment . then murmured to his partner to radio in this was definitely a miscarriage in progress.

They slowly moved her to the gurney , Gia’s eyes were filled with a mixture of fear and pain , she held her hand out for Jon “I’m scared. “ She had no idea what was goin’ on and at the moment to scared and in pain to care . She just wanted to feel better.

“Don’t worry babe, I’m comin’ with ya. “ He grabbed his jacket and followed the whole group out staying near to the gurney as he could without getting in the way. ‘It’s gonna be ok I promise... trust me?”

Gia nodded as she winced again another sharp pain ripped through her . The medics loaded her quickly and carefully into the ambulance and whisked her off to the hospital which thankfully was only a few short minutes away.

Once at the hospital, The medics unloaded her , speeding her through to an empty room where a doctor was waiting . Gia pleaded with them to let Jon stay “ Please I need him. “ tears were falling down her pale cheeks .

Jon brushed her hair back from her forehead, ‘Baby I just gotta step outside for a few minutes ok? They need some information so they can help you. I won’t be long I swear.” He kissed her cheek. Feeling her pain and sadness just as deeply as she did. “I’ll be right here when you wake up ok?” He nodded at the Doctor who gave the nurse the ok for sedation.

“You promise ? “ She asked as her eyes grew heavy , “I’m so tired , I love you. “ then her eyes grew shut , a soft peaceful snore replaced the painful cries she had been voicing a few moments ago.

“Damn it Gia, I love you too.” he swore. Shaking his head he backed away, knowing she was in good hands. He found himself a seat in the waiting room and thought hard. The shock of what had just happened settled in deep. They’d made a baby? How? When? Ok, he knew how but when? He had to smirk a bit asking himself such a silly question. It could have been one of any of the many times. He was almost always careful... almost. So, he’d forgotten once or twice, he didn’t think......a baby... shit, wow. He ran a hand thru his bed tousled hair. No, no baby, not now. Was he happy or sad? He didn’t even know, he was still in shock. The idea of a baby with Gia had never even entered his mind before but now....

“Well, I'll be god damned.” he laughed a sad kind of laugh. Funny time to realize you’re in love with the woman Jon.

The doctor walked out after what seemed like hours to find his patient’s boyfriend “ Excuse me , Mr Bongiovi ? “

“Hmm? yeah, yeah that’s me... she’s ok right?” he stood quickly. His face hopeful.

“Yes , she is gonna be fine , but I’m sorry she did lose the baby.  We did perform a d/c on her and stopped the bleeding and had to give her some blood as well but with some rest, she will be just fine. And  she will be have more children. " The Doctor paused casting a sympathetic look towards Jon. I’m sorry I have no explanation for why it happened sometimes , its natures way of when its not right to -- well you know again I’m sorry “

Jon listened, divesting all the words, his brain working over time. he nodded “I ... we... didn’t even know.” He shrugged, a confused look on his face. “I... I’m just glad she’s gonna be ok. I was.......scared.... thank you.... can I see her soon?”

“ You may go in , she’s asking for you . ‘ The doctor said with a sympathetic tone , sometimes he really hated this part of his job “IF everything goes alright she can go home tomorrow . “

“We’re uh... we’re traveling... is... can she?”

“Yes she can travel. She just needs lots of rest and don’t have her overdue it for awhile and lastly no sex for about 6 weeks. Make sure she has a check up within that time frame. One reason for no sex is to heal the other is her body isn't ready for another baby quite so soon. “

Jon nodded, “I’ll make sure she rests and.. thanks.” He grabbed his jacket and made his way back into her room.

Chapter 23

“Where we goin’ Richie?” Emmie peered out the windows as the car made it’s way thru downtown New York City. It was so big! She was so glad that interview was over, if she had to wait another minute she thought she just might die. There was so much to see and they were only there for two days!

RIchie should have known before they left for the interview, something just wasn’t right with Em but before he could inquire about it , they had to go . Once they stepped out of the interview, he had to get her back to the hotel,  Not sure how he was gonna bring her down from this high . “Baby , we’re going back to the hotel “ he reached over , pulling her closer to him into a tight embrace.

Emmie hugged him back for a split second the wriggled away far enough to frown at him. “Back to the hotel?” Her disappointment was evident. “But, I thought we might go to central park, or the empire state building or... or something.” She pouted, “Can’t we? Please? Your shows tommorrow so we wont have time! I know I said I was tired before but I’m not now.”

“Not til you come down from your high baby. Can you tell me what you took ? “ Richie asked soothingly into her ear.

Emmie managed to look completely perplexed. This was the second time today someone had told her she was high! As if she took illegal drugs or something! She looked at Richie, a bit of her upbringing showed in tone when she answered. “I didn’t take anything to get me high I just took your energy pills, you know the ones you keep in the white bottle in your knapsack.”

Richie pinched his eyes shut , Damn’t I knew I shouldn’t have lied to her about those “ Darlin’ that wasn’t energy pills , “ He paused briefly  “It was amphetamines “ . I only use it when I have had a really bad night the night before and I have to get through a busy early morning “

Emmies frown grew deeper. “Anfet...amphet... am... WHAT?” she scowled at him. She took drugs?? He took drugs?? what? Her head was spinning so fast she couldn't comprehend anything.

‘Amphetamines its used as a pick me up. I didn’t think darlin’ you would have “ Richie let out an exasperated sigh. “I don’t use it that often , honest baby “

She sat perched on his knee, her foot tapping rapidly on the floor board. “You take drugs? You take drugs!” She slid off his lap and balled  up her tiny fist then slugged him solidly in the arm. “Richard Stephen Sambora you got me high!” she accused indignantly.

‘I didn’t I didn’t know you were gonna take it baby , I swear “ Richie winced as her small fist connected with his arm , it hadn’t hurt not physically anyway . The guilt part now that was a different story .

“You lied!”

“I well -- yes I did I’m sorry “ Richie dipped his head in shame “ Forgive me ? “

“Hmph!” She slid over against the other door, her arms crossed and didn’t answer him. Well this is just great! I’m high!?  She was angry. Her day was ruined and he’d lied to her. If he lied about those darn pills what else did he lie about? And he did drink too much! Even if he wouldn’t admit it! She wasn’t so high she forgot about that! Now what was she gonna do?? What did someone do when they were high on drugs? She didn’t even know. How long would this last? She shot Richie an indignant, silent glare.

Richie you dumb-fuck! what the hell were you thinkin’ ? He admonished himself   “Honey I’m sorry please I figured if I told you the truth you would -- leave or somethin’ . I’m sorry I lied “ He slid over to her but her body language spoke louder to him if she would scream at him .  He sat back , resting his head against the back of the seat  , Great just great fuckhead, you fucked things up already .

Emmie tried to make sense of what she now knew but her head was all fuzzed and her body just didnt want to sit still. Now that she knew what was going on she wasn’t sure she liked this feelin at all. As they pulled up to the hotel, she didn’t speak a word, merely grabbed the key from his hand and exited, heading to their room. She had to do something, anything. Didn’t he know how dangerous it was?? Why would he do it? Tiredness was no excuse! Energy pills, coffee, that was one thing but drugs? She fought the urge to stomp her foot in frustration as the elevator doors opened onto their floor. She fumbled with the key, swearing softly under her breath until the door finally opened. Once inside she tossed the key on the bed and dove for his knapsack. Fishing out the offending pills she shot him a look as she crossed to the bathroom and dumped the entire bottle into the toilet then flushed not once but twice. Once all evidence was gone she flung the bottle at his feet and dared him to say a word.

Richie watched her bolt into the hotel , and with quick long strides caught up with her , not a word said the entire elevator ride and to the room. He watched her dash around the room with a confused expression as she preceded to dump his whole stash of Amphetamines down the toilet.  “Baby?” He called out to her but she stood steadfast , anger radiating in her blue eyes , arms crossed .  Would she ever forgive him ?

“No! No, don’t you baby me Mr.!” She shook her finger at him, the high of the drugs and her anger taking hold, making her unable to control her emotions. “those things could kill you!” she shouted then tears welled up involuntarily. “Kill you Richie!! Then... then.... what would I do????”  She was shaking from just the thought. How many times had she seen him go to that bottle and take what seemed like handfuls at a time? My God, those and all the drinking mixed? She sat down hard right where she was on the floor and shook her head, “What would I do?” The last question was said in barely a whisper. More to herself than to him.

“Baby, “ Richie called out again , as he bent down to join her on the floor “  I’m sorry I didn’t think well we don’t think on the road , seriously its just out there and well we try it , I didn’t think this was as bad as the other stuff that's out there “

Emmie shook her head. She couldn’t speak. Didn’t he understand? She loved him! If anything happened to him it would kill her! She simply looked at him sadly.

Richie snaked his arms around her , hugging her tightly then softly stroked her hair. “I promise not to anything like that again , I didn’t think of the consequences really we don’t . ‘ He hoped and prayed he just didn’t totally fuck things up with probably the best thing that happened to him in a long time.  Her reaction took him a bit off  guard none of his girlfriends before cared , hell they joined right in .  She’s not like his other girlfriends he sternly reminded himself.

She wanted to pull away, she was still that angry, she was still that high. But, the instinct to simply hold onto him won out. She melted into his arms and closed her eyes. Her heart was still speeding along  and her head wasn’t exactly calm but his embrace mellowed her out just enough for it to be bearable. How long they sat like that, she didn’t know. She didn’t care, she was just happy things were starting to feel somewhat normal again and that those dreaded drugs were gone. After some time she buried her face in his shirt and inhaled his scent then whispered “ I love you Richie.”

He leaned in pressing a kiss to her forehead , paused a moment as thoughts raced through his head , She loved him ? Did he love her back ? Yes I think I do -- well else did I feel like if she walked out , his heart feeling the beginning pangs of heartache .  “I love you too Em darlin’ “ , he tilted her chin and sweetly kissed her .

Chapter 22

Surprisingly they hadn’t even been missed. The boys were still in with the radio dj’s  and a few moments later , they stepped out .Richie quickly rushing off a very high  Em into a car apparently he had noticed she had been too and wanted to get her back to the hotel as soon as possible . She chuckled it was very clear that Richie hadn’t given her anything , Em stumbled onto something Richie has taken around her. But what ? She definitely made a point to ask Jon later.

A few moments after Richie hustled out of the building , Jon exited with Doc whom yet again were in a deep conversation before Doc walked off flashing her a curt smile and out the door he went too.

Jon sighed a relieved sigh and grabbed Gia’s hand “Now, lets go get some grub eh? I’m starved.”


Gia nodded. “I think my stomach wants to eat itself , I’m so hungry “ she followed him out the doors and into the awaiting car.  “So what was  grumpy ass bitching about now ? “ She asked as she settled into the backseat.

Jon shrugged “Same shit different day Gia.” He smiled down at her as they got into a waiting cab. “So ya wanna go back to the room and order in or ya wanna go find something else?”

Gia smiled naughtily. “ IF we go back to the room , I don’t believe we will eat -- food that is and my stomach needs nourishment. “

Jon snorted,” You’re so right babe.” He leaned forward and spoke to the driver telling him where to go then sat back and relaxed.

Gia smiled when a few moments later , they arrived at Antonio’s again “ You didn’t ? Thank you. “ her eyes glittering with happiness . , She then took his hand and stepped out of the cab.

Jon simply smiled and led her back in, they were seated and drinks were ordered. He sat back and watched her. Was she a distraction like Doc said. Yes, yes she was. a big distraction but... it was a distraction he wanted, no needed. A distraction that grounded him when his head got to big for his shoulders.

A comfortable silence befell them , while they waited for their drinks. Gia wondered nervously if she should bring up the dreaded relationship topic or not , sucking in a deep breath then slowly exhaling , she spoke. “ I did some thinkin’ today.  “ Her eyes gazed down at the napkin, she was nervously playing with. “ thinking about us and where this was headed. “ she swallowed hard not sure if she wanted to meet his eyes when he answered.

He raised an eyebrow. “Oh yeah?” He casually took a sip of his drink. So she’d been thinking too. That was a good sign. Or was it? he frowned for  split second. “So uh, what was the verdict?” He cautiously asked while racking his brain for something, anything he may have done.... or not done to piss her off.

Gia chewed on her bottom lip , her gaze meeting his. “ I’m not used to this -- I don’t know what to do -- next  I never gotten this far before. “ she reluctantly admitted.

Jon nodded thoughtfully. Ok, so she hasn’t told me to fuck off yet, that’s a good thing. “Yeah, well I have, but um, my track records not really the greatest so...” He chuckled a bit nervously. “We’re kind in the same boat here I think,” After a few more moments of thoughtful silence he asked, “Are you happy out here Gia?”

“I am for the first time I hadn’t thought about my family , the resentment gone. “ Gia softly smiled “Even my Nana, and I think about her everday usually. “

“Does it bother you when I’m busy?”

Gia thought about it for a moment. “ Well I miss you but I know its your job and thats your nature to work work work. “ she winked “No it doesn’t bother me. “

“You miss me?” he grinned

“I do “ She smiled shyly

Jon nodded and reached across the table grasping her hand gently. “Well, I don't want to miss you, and that's why I...” He cleared his throat before he spoke. “Why I’d really like it if you’d stay with me, here, on the road, be my girl... ya know?”  He looked at her hopefully.

Her eyes widened as she searched his in depth “ You really want me to be your girl ? I never been any-one's girl before -- I know I talked big when we met but I really am not like that. “

“I know.” he reassured her.

“So whats next , bet you think its funny for a girl of my age to have her first boyfriend at 21. “ Gia said as a tinge of red crept up on her cheeks.

“Nah.. I think it’s kinda cool actually.”

Gia smiled ,she leaned over and kissed him  , the moment she did their dinner came .  Her eyes lit up good ole fashioned Fettuccine Alfredo , garlic bread and a green salad/vine-grate . “Oh this smells delicious “ a with a lick of her lips she dove into the feast before her.

Jon watched as she ate with relish. What’s next she’d asked. Hell if he knew but at least they were on the same page. He knew now she felt just like he did. He smiled as he scooped a big bite to his lips. It was nice to know you weren’t alone. So, so nice.


After dinner they shared a slice of Carmel drizzled cheesecake .  Gia cut a piece with her fork then fed it to Jon . She was his girlfriend , giddy was an understatement in how she was feeling then she remembered the other thing she had wanted to discuss with him  ‘Baby , did you happen notice how -- well high Em was ?”

High? Emmie? Jon frowned as he chewed “Uh, no not really why?” Sure, Richie had been a little wired today, but he always was. Jon knew Richie did his own thing where that was concerned and didn’t say a word so long as it didn’t interfere with business. Rich was his best friend but still a grown man and didn’t need him as a babysitter.

“Well while we were waiting on you to say she couldn’t sit still was an understatement . We went for a walk and I barely could keep up with her , had to take off my heels and practically run after her . And she talked about a mile a minute . She was on something I am sure of it. “

Jon looked shocked, utterly and truly shocked. “Are you sure??”  He even scratched his head in bewilderment. The thought of Richie’s lil lady higher than a kite was just so off the wall to him.

Gia nodded “ I am positive it was more than coffee , I got the blisters on my feet to prove it. “ she chuckled lightly .

Jon sat thinking silently for a moment. ‘Well, I mean, ok I know Rich dabbles in...stuff. hell, I’ve dabbled in stuff.” he shifted a bit uncomfortably in his chair. He felt like he was betraying his best friend admitting it. “But I don’t think he’s give it to Em... I don’t think?”

“I don’t think he knowingly gave it to her the way he booked out of the radio station , I think he did figure it out though  “ Gia added in a bit of defense of Richie .

Jon nodded, “Yeah he’d know what signs to look for that’s for sure.”

“I’m just wondering what ? I’m concerned for her. She is very impressionable. “ Gia remarked .

Jon reached across the table and squeezed her hand gently. “I wouldn’t worry too much, honestly I’m sure Rich will take care of her.”

“I hope so , she really hasn’t been around this type of -- well you know , sex drugs and rock and roll lifestyle-- in her mind if she sees him doing it then it must be ok for her to do it. “  Gia explained .

“Maybe she’s just experimenting ya know.”

“True , I guess then but if it becomes a habit ? Then I may have to say something. “  Gia warned not wanting to put a damper on their wonderful evening but she was very protective of her cousin

“I think you’re just over reacting cause your in shock. It’s just so unlike her ya know. I think you should just keep an eye out but maybe not make a big deal about it cause I mean, hell Gia your not much older than she is so I’m sure you remember how it was when you first started tryin new things. You sure didn’t want someone preachin to ya about it right? Even if they had a good point.”

“Yea, I suppose you’re right , I’m sorry if I’ve overreacted just never seen her like that or even consider wanting to try it , hell she has never been drunk before. “

Jon squeezed Gia’s hand affectionately then chuckled “Babe, the girls been shacked up in Richie Sambora’s hotel room for the last what? Three weeks? I guarantee you she’s been drunk... VERY drunk.” he winked.

Gia laughed “ I supposed now that I think about it , you’re right , I guess I need to let her grow up to huh ?  Oh hell, Uncle Daniel will have a coronary  if he knew. “  then finished the last of her wine.

Jon snorted ‘Well I sure the hell aint tellin him!” he threw back his head and laughed, ‘Hell no.”

‘Why he scare you ? “ Gia teased “ He’s all bark no bite -- well most of the time anyway. “

 “Yeah, I’m just glad he ain't YOUR dad.” Jon chuckled and paid the bill, scribbling his signature on the credit slip he helped Gia out of her chair. Taking her hand and leading her out the door he chuckled,  “I do wanna be a fly on the wall though next time he and Mr. Sambora meet.” Jon winked and they both crawled into the cab heading back toward the hotel and the comfort of their room. Laughing all the way at visions of the confrontation.

Chapter 21

Emmie sat quietly in the corner of the lounge while Richie and the other guys were on the air in the studio. She waved excitedly as Jon scurried past her and into the glass room, Gia following closely.  She watched as Jon dropped a kiss on Gia’s forehead then turned her towards the couches before disappearing into the studio. “Hey Gia!” She grinned.

Gia momentarily watched Jon til he disappeared then turned to her cousin  “Heya Em, how goes it ? “ she asked taking a seat beside her “ I know we’re late  “ wincing  “But he had to come see me at Antonio’s , wasn’t that just so sweet of him “ 

“Yeah!” Emmie agreed. She fidgeted and got up to pace groaning “God, I’m so bored Gia.” she glanced out the window tapping her foot.

‘“Well they did say there would be parts of the road  that would be ? “ Gia gently reminded her . “It’s better than being at the hotel alone , don’tcha think ? “ 

“Yeah, yeah yeah yeah.” She sighed and paced a bit then groaned. She’d been so damn tired this morning. She was gonna stay back at the hotel and just relax but Richie wanted her to come along. He seemed to want her with him non-stop and normally she wouldn’t have minded, not at all. She loved being with him. She just had such a hard time keeping up with him! Her was like freakin’ superman!  She sat beside Gia for merely a moment the popped back up again to pace. “I hope they aren’t here long.”

Gia watched her friend and chuckled “ Damn girl I thought you had more patience than this , What’s going on ? Other than being bored ? “ she asked “They could be awhile , since Jon was late . I just hope he didn’t get too much shit for it  “ God her pacing was driving her nuts , she stood , gently grasped Em  “Please sit you are making me anxious “ 

“Sorry” Emmie muttered and sat. She drummed her nails on the table beside her then sighed. “I just can’t sit here!I wanna do SOMETHING!” She popped back up. “Let’s go.... um... let’s go for a walk!” 

“Ok we can go for a walk ? What is wrong with you ? I never seen you so edgy ? “ She asked then glanced back to the glass window where the guys were . “But wait a sec , we should leave a message with the secretary so they don’t think we took off for higher ground. " She chuckled then walked over to the young brunette sitting behind the receptionist desk “ Excuse me ma’am could you do us a favor , we’re stepping out for a moment could you give Mr Sambora and Mr Bon Jovi a message just in case we aren’t back when they are finished. Tell them we went for a walk be back shortly “ 

The secretary jotted down the message and watched as the two women rushed out the door. 

Emmie chatted non-stop walking no-where, simply walking and chatting chatting and walking. She shot about 20 questions out at Gia all at once then kept walking and looked at her expectantly for answers.

Gia shot her a puzzled look “ Em , what the fuck you on ? I can’t keep up with the questions you just fired at me ?  “ She struggled to keep up with her stride in the heels she had chosen to wear for lunch today .

“On? huh?” Emmie looked confused, she glanced down at Gia’s heels and shook her head. “Gia haven’t you learned yet, tennis shoes..... comfort!” she admonished her friend playfully.

“I know but I wanted to look nice for Jon, He loves heels “ Gia grinned “Besides didn’t know we were goin’ on a run , thought it was just a walk “ 

Emmie frowned “Were not running.” She shrugged and tried to slow her steps a bit. God Gia was so slow today!

“Yes, we are , hold on “ Gia grunted to a stop , reached down pulled off her shoes  “ There now So where’s the fire? “ 

“What fire?”  Emmie frowned. “So what’s up with Jon? He’s been arguing with the mean little fat guy a lot lately.”

With a roll of her eyes , Gia answered in an irritated tone “ I guess the baldie doesn’t care too much for us being on the road , says we are distracting “ 

Emmie grinned “Well we are!” she laughed. She loved distracting Richie. It was so easy to do! And fun!

“Emmilia You’re high ! “ Gia exclaimed “That’s why your stuck in fast mode “  

Emmie frowned, “Am not.”

“Are too ! What did you take ? “ Gia asked , grabbing her arm to try and slow her down and face her .

“I didn’t take anything.” She lied and willed herself to try to act normal.” Crap I didn’t think she’d notice! “I just drank a whole lot of coffee this morning mmkay? So yeah I’m on overdrive but shit, who cares! Look Gia... it’s a beautiful day and damn it they are STILL in there wasting it away answering silly questions when they should be enjoying the DAY!” Emmie groaned in frustration, “Come on let’s head back maybe they’ll be done soon hmm?” 

Gia watched her cousin in a amused bewilderment , She definitely high on what she wasn’t so sure , and she was gonna be asking Jon what he thought when she was able too . So she just let the subject drop for now  “ Sure lets head back because girl you’re run me into the ground trying to keep up with you “ 

“Wuss” Emmie called over her shoulder laughing as they made their way back to the radio station.

Chapter 20

Gia smiled to the waitress who led her to a small  table in the corner. They arrived in New York the night before, when Jon’s suggested meeting for lunch.

She had always wanted to explore New York and find a good Italian restaurant . It took her some doing , but asking around everyone she spoke too recommended Antonio’s .

Sitting down the waitress took her drink order, which consisted of a coke .Once the waitress walked away , she took in the atmosphere , it was a charming little restaurant with red/white tablecloths on the table , lacy white  curtains on the windows . The aroma of fresh bread and savory garlic filled the room reminding her of her Nana . Whoa it been what three weeks since she thought about her family much less her Nana who she nearly thought about everyday , she shook her head in confusion When had all the resentment died and happiness replaced it within her heart.  Could it be ? Na Jon is different  ,well maybe not so different than she was. Come to think of it .  He doesn’t speak much in feelings but his actions well they speak in volumes.


They had parted ways in Jamaica , she had accepted it was just a fling a glorious one , but a fling never the less. Then what a few weeks later , he showed up whisking her away with him and she had been with him ever since . Now if that that didn’t speak volumes nothin’ would.

In just three short weeks , she realized how much they were truly alike -- not just sex either. He had built walls around himself  as much as she did, very rarely letting anyone in to see the real him but he was letting her in. Should she give him the same in return? She was afraid too , every time she tried to give her heart. First time was when her parents died , though she had been young and didn’t remember them much , she felt abandoned, then she tried to her give her heart to her aunt but all she did was rake her over the coals, no comforting love which she needed , just criticism and hatred for who she was ?  And what she loved about Jon -- wait love did she love him?? He always made her feel special, never asking her to be anything than who she is nothing more , nothing less.  Is that what Love is ? Was Jon perfect ? No but neither was she.  He was cranky , a tad too cocky and spoiled so the fuck what ? IF she wanted perfect she would date one of the many men , her aunt tried to set her up with . Could she , Dare she give her heart to him -- what if he doesn’t feel the same ?

Gia shook her thoughts away , glanced at her watch Jon should be arriving soon , the thought of seeing him again which was ridiculous really when she just saw him this morning but didn’t stop her from having butterflies in her stomach and feeling giddy all over.


Jon practically ran up the street, he didn’t have much time, he was already late but he’d be damned if he left Gia sitting there waiting and waiting. Doc thought he’d lost his fucking head runnin off like he had when he was scheduled to be at a radio station in less than 20 minutes but Jon told him the station would wait, hell anyone would wait, he was the star, they couldn’t start without him anyway. Well that flippant comment got him a glare or three but fuck it he didn’t care he wasn’t the one who scheduled the appearance after he already had plans.

He glance up and almost cheered, Antonio’s, this was the place. Cracking open the door he blinked his eyes a few times to adjust to the dimness inside and then scanned the room. Spotting her he raised a hand in greeting and made his way to her

After a couple refills of her soda , she spotted him , a smile spread on her face and she about jumped out of her chair in giddiness . By all rights she should be angry being kept waiting , but she knew he was busy , work , work , work that is what the man was about and she found that out hard and fast , but the moment she saw his smile and those eyes .  Any thoughts of resentment flew vastly out the window. “Heya baby you made it “ Gia exclaimed


Jon huffed sat down, then slid Gia’s soda nearer to him and took a sip. “Yeah but I can’t stay.” His tone sounded almost like he was pouting. “I gotta be down at some radio station in like,” He paused, looked at his watch and said “ten minutes ago...oops.”

Gia hid a flash of disappointment that threatened to form in  her emerald eyes, “Oh really , I’m just glad you made it “ she answered reaching over taking his hand in hers . Just taking a a few moments for her made her heart swell  , should she dare bring up their ‘relationship’ ? With a silent shake of her head , she decided against it, he couldn’t stay  -- Later yes later she would say something .

He saw her disappointment, felt it even though she tried to hide it. “I’m sorry babe, I really am... I..” He sighed. This was why he didn’t have a relationship. His former long time girlfriend had tried she really had but he hadn’t been the easiest guy to work with on that respect. He knew that now and didn’t blame her one bit for leavin his ass. He knew he had to try harder if he ever expected any woman to take him seriously but it was just so hard sometimes. No, your just a lazy fucker Jon he chided himself. “You uh... you could come with me if ya want.” he offered. He knew Doc and Ritchie B. wouldn’t be happy with a tag along girlfriend but he didn’t care.


Gia’s eyes lit up as she tried to bite back a giddy grin “You sure I won’t be in the way , I don’t want to cause any problems “  She had a feeling from the way Doc though polite treated her and Em , he didn’t like them being around on  the tour at all , In fact at one point she had overheard Doc complaining to Richie Bozzett , these girls are gonna be a distraction the boys don’t need right now ,   She never figured how that could be , she tried to stay out of the spotlight , only a few times daring to step into the meet and greet room , most times she either stayed at the hotel  while he did interviews or such and after the show she remained in the dressing room , unless he asked for her .

Jon snorted, “Yeah,  you’ll probably be in the way, at least according to some people but fuck it I don’t care what they say. I’m the star so fuck em. Besides Emmie’s there I saw her get in the van with Richie when I was leavin to come here so the two of you can hang out together... out of the way.”

“Well , ok then if Em is there , Sure I would love to go “ Gia smiled “Though can we get a bit to eat after “ she waved the waitress for the check , Other time but she make a point in  coming back her thats for sure .

“Absolutely, I haven’t ate yet either,” He took her hand and after tossing some cash on the table for the patient waitress, led her quickly out the door and hailed a cab. He glanced at his watch again. So he was gonna show up 30 minutes late, so what, he had his woman with him.... he was content.

Chapter 19

Emmie woke early, refreshed. She moved quietly around the room. She brewed a steaming pot of rich aromatic coffee and called down to the kitchen ordering a light breakfast for herself and for Richie, whenever he rolled his hung over butt out of bed.  She dug through her suitcase pulling out her journal and a pen. After pouring a cup of coffee for herself, she waited a few minutes longer for the light rap on the door. Bringing the room service breakfast in and settling it on the table she took herself a bagel and some creme cheese. Somehow she managed to juggle everything in her hands and curled up on the couch nibbling, sipping and writing.


The paint shooting through his head grew stronger as he slowly opened his bloodshot eyes and groaned “Why do I do this ? “ He reached for Em only to find an cold empty spot next to him , pushing up on his arms, he peeked around the bedroom , with no sign of her , he reluctantly swung his legs off the bed , they felt like lead and his head pounded .

He trudged out of the bedroom , glanced around til he spotted his lil lady then walked over plopping down beside her , throwing his head back against the sofa , his eyes clinched tightly trying to will the pain to go away.

Emmie quickly shut her journal, setting it aside. “Mornin sleepy head. “ she reached out and touseled his already messy hair.

“What time is it ? “ He asked in a very quiet voice “Don’t do that too rough , it hurts “

Emmie smirked, “Eleven” she said before getting up to pour him a cup of coffee. She walked back over and handed it to him with the simple order. “Drink it”

He took the cup of brew , slowly lifted his head “ Yes ma’am , aren’t we late  for Bus Call ? ‘ he asked confusedly while taking a sip.

She gave him a puzzled look. “No todays and off day, we leave tonight, show again tommorrow.”

“That’s right “ He chuckled ‘You’ll see after a while , you won’t even know where you’re at “

Emmie nodded “You might not be so confused if you didn’t drink so much.” She said softly. Laying a hand gently on his thigh to soften the sting of her words. She knew she shouldn’t say anything but she just couldn’t help herself. He looked so tired this morning, so miserable! The normal mischievous twinkle she loved so much was gone from his eyes.

Richie winced at her tone , almost sounding like his mother talking , he paused before responding reminding himself she was new to this life , he had to show patience “Darlin’ its not the drinking that does it, you will see even without drinks the days , nights , weeks start to run together . “ He would hope she would understand what he meant, he didn’t have  problem with alcohol , Did He ?

She felt his defenses go up, even though his tone remained calm. She felt it in the tenseness of his thigh beneath her hand.”I... I know... I’m sorry.” She tripped over her words. “I just mean, it can’t help much.” She clamped her lips together. Shoot that sounds nagging too that’s not what I want!

Frown lines creased her normally smooth forehead. “What I mean is, it’s got to be even MORE confusing than normal when you wake up feeling like......well,” she paused, profanity still didn’t come easily to her. “Like shit.”  With an almost pained sigh she reached out to stroke his cheek then leaned over and dropped a feather-light kiss where her fingers had just been.

Richie sucked in then let out a deep breath “ I know , I’m sorry warned you I was a bit of a grump in the mornin’ after “ he reached for her hand on his thigh bringing it up to his lips , gently kissing the back of her hand.  “Maybe a good shower will do me good ? Huh? “ he asked “Care to join me ? “ the naughty twinkle was back flashing in his chocolate brown eyes .

Emmie’s eyebrow raised “Join you?”  A slow sexy smile spread over her face as she thought of the possibilities. It seemed a bit wicked. Thought they’d been lovers now for awhile, he’d not introduced her to much  more than slow sensual lovemaking though he had hinted at other things he’d like to teach her. Catching the devilish glint in his eyes she almost purred “You have my attention...”

With a grin, he stood up , reached for her hand and sauntered to the bathroom , Once in there he bent down to turn the water knobs on, checking the temperature  then flicked the shower button to on  .

He then slid out of his shorts , then proceeded to slowly remove her shirt and shorts as well, while taking a moment to nibble behind her ear to her neck.. Stepping into the shower , he held his hand out to help her, The warm beads of water pouring over the both of them.

Emmie chewed her bottom lip as she always did when she was nervous. She looked him up and down slowly. The water beaded over his skin and ran in little rivulets over his shoulders and chest. She reached up and slicked her hands slowly over him stepping closer, her mouth even with his delectable nipples, her tongue darted out, laving up the warm water as her mouth took the tiny nub and rolled it gently.

Richie growled  his legs wobbled from the electricity shooting through just from the mere  touch of her tongue grasping the wall to steady himself then , brought her mouth to meet his , he captured hers with such intensity it almost scared him,  His hands slid down her back pressing her closer into his erection , he rubbed against her nub with a slow and very deliberate pace.

She whimpered in surprise, his lips were so much more demanding this time, his hands less gentle, and though it made her heart skip a beat in panic, she loved it. Her hands traced their way down to his hips and she let them glide over his ass. She squeezed, ever so gently and moaned his name.

His growls becoming more prevalent as his need for her grew , He reached for her hands on him then backed her up to the shower wall, turning her , parting her legs , he entered her with a quick hard thrust , his hand sliding around her waist to keep her from slipping . His thrusts weren’t as gentle as the countless times before , he needed her , wanted her and the darkness in him came out in each and every one of his thrusts .

She gasped in delight, pleasure hotter than the hottest bowels of hell scorched her from the inside out. She was lost in him, clinging to the solid warm, moist flesh as the world around her dissolved. There was nothing only him and the wicked yet wonderful things he was doing to her body.

His grasp grew tighter , as he was reaching his peak,  he leaned forward to whisper in her ear

“You like this baby? Tell Richie what you want.“ Slowing his thrusts then picked them up in a mere few seconds , teasing her , torturing her .  Deep in his mind he thought maybe it had been to soon to show her this side of him , but from the reaction he received in return , brought a smile to his face .

Emmie responded to his command, voicing her need for him, saying deliciously naughty things that even she didn’t know she had the nerve to say. Her nails bit into his flesh as he took her up and over again and again. Her ragged breathing almost a sob of sensation with each thrust.

As soon as Emmie voiced her answer , Richie plunged harder , faster in to her swollen nub , his one hand reaching between her legs , to rub the sensitive spot, he was so close to his peak he needed her there too ,  He soon felt her muscles clinch tightly around him, causing his own climax to kick into gear,  He dipped down biting into her neck as both rode out their orgasms together .

It was a long, long time before Emmie became aware of the things around her: the water now running almost cold, the way the skin of her fingers were pruned. She couldn't even stand on her own. Her legs shook and felt like jello. An overwhelming wave of emotion overtook her. She held onto him tightly, eyes shut, breathing still ragged. She never wanted to let go.

Richie held her for a moment , trying to regain his own bearings , before turning them both facing the shower knobs , while still holding her , he reached down to turn off  slid open the curtain then reached for a couple towels one for which he wrapped her in and another for him . He stepped out of the shower , then helped her out , lifting her up and carried her to the bedroom . “I think we could use a nap don’t you “ He winked as he lied her down gently on the bed.

She simply nodded, not trusting her own voice at the moment. She snuggled herself securely against him and closed her eyes.

Richie wrapped his arm around her , his eyes closing shut  “Sweet Dreams Em darlin’ “ Yes this girl was more than just a fling, she was special -- Yes he could see it now his last thought before sleep over took him